Water Sports

Yes I know what that means, and 'NO" it is not intended for that, but I thought that it was a fitting title.

People wanted to know why I "LOVE" water so much, even in SL. Well I took a shower today, and decided to blog it.

Warmth and steam fluid release.
Calming and soothing in many degrees.
Graceful yet strong. With tiresome songs.
Mind is amidst as the world melts away.
Walls open up and the imagination forms.
Letting go of mortal coils and pain of the day before.
Reaching through the clouds of steam and finding
a lightly scented array of soap.
Washing away the stench of cities and dirt of the day.
Waking the mind and rising the flesh.
Hands wander and find tired kinks, massaging away
and release small moans of pain.
The mind drifts and the eyes close.
The the hands roam free.
Finding more places to release the senses.
Slowly. fluidly, sensually, lulling across the vast sea of flesh.
Steam filling the lungs as the face grows flush and body responds.
Leaning slightly to the side.
Mind finds a plane of existence outside this small enclousure.
Wondering through time and space. Hearing the rush of a familiar sound.
Waterfalls and meadows stream in vision as the mind walks and and ponders.
Slowly rising and falling with the rush of sound something brings the mind back.
Snaps it into place.
A pulling of sensation as the hands continue to massage and find places among the flesh.
Quietly interrupting the imagination.
Mind fighting to float to wonder off, but the body refuses to wonder.
It grows close to its center as the mind grows blank.
Small colors form as the body goes ridged.
Steam soothing
Water rushing
Mind is numb climbing through waves of peace and a newed strength
Muscles release and arms outstretched hold in place as the body releases hidden secrets and bonds
Fully grasped inside this world.
Nothing can touch it.
Nothing can find it.
For that moment I am truly at peace.

Falling under and sinking

I don't know if anyone in SL goes through this, but I have been undergoing some interesting feelings in SL lately. There is something that I have the ability to do, and that is search and monitor aura, and energy. I can see it in RL, and feel it's connective energy like a surge. I have meet a few people that were able to give you some high amount, but one always called out. When I meet Creag I felt a surge that went straight to the core. Like a graceful S.O.S. It was quiet refreshing. Yet I pulled from it. So as I moved on apparently so did Creag. We eventually found each other again.

It was like no matter how hard I pulled the more he reached out engulfing me. It was becoming quiet irresistible. So I was pulled in like a moth to flame, but with every great love story there is a dark side to all things. My mother (Lilith) had other plans for me. When I was born she betrothed me to my brother. Don't ask, my mother did not believe in outside afars. But with the strength of my father (Camael) I trudged on. Resisting her will. I hid in Heaven. Till it was my time to go and help mankind. But before that day came I made a soul. Which is the job of angels. I guess you can say we have to earn our keep. (Smiles)

So I wanted to create something in my likeness. I never created another for I put so much effort into this soul that I never wanted to lose myself like that again. So I created a Fae. A true being of light and dark. Neutral yet because of my mother being darkness I placed my darkest forms of energy inside this being. Which made him unseelie. (sighs) I guess a way to release the negativity in my heart so that I could be truly free. As I released this soul unto the earth I was at peace for a short time. Till it was my time to depart. I ascended to earth and found my brother waiting.

For quiet some time he tried to persuade me of my mother's will. Each time I turned away. Each time he came back. Stronger more persistent. As I grew from him. I learned many trials, and turns of the hate and darkness that was man. But I also noticed the more man turned from me, the more I pushed back. The day my husband asked to marry me. I sent a letter to my brother asking him to come. He had not talked to me in a long time, so I had thought that he had let the things of the past move on. Not only did he not speak with me but he even married. So I was sure that he would never pursue me again. But he never responded to my invitation. So I was married and living a very fruitful life. Yet something set me off. Something came to me with such force that not even the love of my husband could stop it. My mother had found a way to posses me. Finding ways to feed on man and leaving me to wake in fields and even strange dark caves. Finally she drew the last straw. She attacked my husband.

He did what any Fae would do. Lock away all the darkness and hold the key. He took out my soul to make sure that I would not lose the best part of myself, and placed it next to his throne. As time grew his uncle found out of this, and sent for my essence. But Creag would not have it. So he sent my body knowing that his uncle would not harm what he thought was the vessel to a Heavenly light. Purest of all power.

Well I was tired wandering around as a soul so I decided to visit my brother. GODS how I regret it. He told me about how I dishonored the family and how he is about to take over all in his path. How he will collar me, and make me his. Well I warned my husband of such events, and well let me just say we have one very pissed of Fae King. Well my brother threatens to kill my husband and my husband is ready to mount his head on a pike. Well we will see how things go. I think I am going to keep my angelic butt home though. It seems that things are going to be dark, but I will not confront such a task yet. I trust my husbands judgment and I leave it in his capable hands.

Took Again...

I took the test again, this time slower to make sure all was correct. So here it is. (smiles)

You are The Star
Hope, expectation, Bright promises.
The Star is one of the great cards of faith, dreams realised
The Star is a card that looks to the future. It does not predict any immediate or powerful change, but it does predict hope and healing. This card suggests clarity of vision, spiritual insight. And, most importantly, that unexpected help will be coming, with water to quench your thirst, with a guiding light to the future. They might say you're a dreamer, but you're not the only one.

My beautiful Boy

My kid dedicated this to me. I cried my little eyes out.

Flyleaf "Broken Wings"

Thank you for being such a friend to me
Oh I pray a friend for life,
And have I ever told you how much you mean to me?
Oh you're everything to me
Thinking all the time how to tell you what I feel,
Contemplating phrases....I'm gazing at eternity,
I am floating in serenity...

And I am so lost for words
And I am so overwhelmed

Please don't leave just yet
Can you stay a moment please
We can dance together
We can dance forever

Under your stars tonight
We'll live and breathe this dream

So close your eyes, but don't dream too deep
And please pass me some memories
And when I fall you're underneath
1000 broken hearts, carried by 1000 broken wings

(I dedicated this back to everyone that was ever there for me in the time of need)

Flyleaf "There for you"

Sometimes I'm a selfish fake
You're always a true friend
I don't deserve you
'Cause I'm not there for you
Please forgive me again

I wanna be there for you
Someone you can come to
Runs deeper than my bones
I wanna be there for you
I wanna be there for you

Swirling shades of blue
Slow dancing in your eyes
Sun kisses the earth
And I hush my urge to cry

I wanna be there for you
Someone you can come to
Runs deeper than my bones
I wanna be there for you
I wanna be there for you

'Cause I hear the whispered words
In your masterpiece beautiful
You speak the unspeakable through
I love you too

I wanna be there for you
Someone you can come to

I wanna be there for you
And be someone you can come to
The love runs deeper than my bones
I wanna be there for you

How interesting

You are The Star

Hope, expectation, Bright promises.

The Star is one of the great cards of faith, dreams realised

The Star is a card that looks to the future. It does not predict any immediate or powerful change, but it does predict hope and healing. This card suggests clarity of vision, spiritual insight. And, most importantly, that unexpected help will be coming, with water to quench your thirst, with a guiding light to the future. They might say you're a dreamer, but you're not the only one.

What is a picture truly Worth?

I was just thinking about this earlier. What is a picture truly worth. Is is the person inside the picture? Or the care of the photographer? Who knows. All I know is that I was looking at this picture today, and something just struck me. I really like this picture. Not because I am riddled in tattoos, or that I am looking a certain way. But what it means. How I feel when I look through the eyes of the person that took it, and saw something there that I had forgotten so many years ago.

I am writting a book on this character, yet I can't help but get sucked in. Every part of me wants to move on an cause turmoil in this girls path, yet another part of me wants to just relax, and enjoy that perfect life this angel has been lucky to get.

I will admit her life is far from perfect but her events are quiet gracious. She has much to be proud of. No I do not talk of Algarond, or Gamilia, or even her titles. Her family. That is what I seek to adjust my angelic light upon. The ones that pray, and honor her with great strides. The ones that even out of SL stop and think of her as though she is apart of them. The ones that have taken the time to see threw thoughs eyes.

I think I am the only angel with Green eyes. How ironic. I guess that is something about me in RL that I can never hide even in SL. It is apart of me as clear as water, and as strong as the summer breeze. So much can be seen in my eyes. So much I wish to share with the world. Yet I find each and everyday I too discover much of myself.

I have found that I am not a strong writer, but I love it. So I will continue to do so. Even if I don't have any readers. I know of a few people that see me for who I truly am, and they are all that I need in my life. I care strongly for my family. I pray they know I am always there watching and smiling down on them. For even know all I have is right here. Yesterday is History. Tomorrow is a mystery, but now is FOREVER!

So when you look at someone and smiles, and you tell them that you will love them forever. You are right. For NOW, right NOW! You are true to your heart, for there is not other day. No other light, no other form of place. I only pray that each memory I submit I will get to re live, reform, reknow. Because there is nothing like the feeling of being apart of something.

I have great pride, and I find that even in my weakest moments I will always shine. Because I have made from the smallest grain of sand. Yet when I was born lightening struck it. What happens when you heat up sand? It forms glass. Crystal clear prisoms of color shining like a thousand rainbows. That is what my heart is. Brillance in greatness. Going every which way. But someone found it, and before they asked for anything they offered a gift. A great gift. A piece of themselves. Before they ever even asked me for a taste of what I had to offer in return. To me that is true and unending faith in the human heart. For our soul is the greatest gift of all.

I will cherish such a gift til the end of my being, and even then I will rise again, like the pheonix. Yet I feel that at the end of this journey I will be at peace. True summerland of hope. I will rest soon, and until then I ride the waves of force, and watch for the outcome. I just pray I can take as many with me on this ride. So that they too can know the unblinding faith I speak of.

May Diane bless this eve.

Love,
Jennidia

A day of pure light

Well as I never thought that things could get any worse. For some reason the electric company rejected my check. So yikes. OUT OF INTERNET and MY DAMN LAB TOP craped on me. So I have officially moved back in with my mother. GODS. I haven't lived here since I was 17. WOW years and years ago. My son is laying down for a nap with my mom so I have some time to relax and visit my hubby. GODS I MISS HIM! Creag is the only thing in my life keeping me sane right now.

I was walking last night, and you will not believe this. But I looked up and I had wondered into this park called Creag's Park. I was like GODS I am losing it. So I wondered through and planted around this beautiful lake in the middle was some gorgeous purple Iris's. I mean how ironic is that. I don't know if it is healthy to think of someone so much. But damn it. It makes me happy so you can kiss my shinny butt. (smiles).

Well I wish you all the best, and keep praying, for I am getting some were soon. I hold you all in my heart. Thank you again for everything.

Love,
Jennidia