Friday, November 28, 2008
Thursday, November 27, 2008
In Her Eyes
She stares through my shadow
She sees something more
Believes there's a light in me
She is sure
And her truth makes me stronger
Does she realize
I awake every morning
With her strength by my side
I am not a hero
I am not an angel
I am just a man
Man who's trying to love her
Unlike any other
In her eyes I am
This world keeps on spinning
Only she stills my heart
She's my inspiration
She's my northern star
I don't count my possession
All I call mine
I will give her completely
To the end of all time
I am not a hero
I am not an angel
I am just a man
Man who's trying to love her
Unlike any other
In her eyes I am
In her eyes I see the sky and all I'll ever need
In her eyes time passes by and she is with me
I am not a hero
I am not an angel
I am just a man
Man who's trying to love her
Unlike any other
In her eyes I am
In her eyes I am
Your Still You
"You're Still You"
Through the darkness
I can see your light
And you will always shine
And I can feel your heart in mine
Your face I've memorized
I idolize just you
I look up to
Everything you are
In my eyes you do no wrong
I've loved you for so long
And after all is said and done
You're still you
After all
You're still you
You walk past me
I can feel your pain
Time changes everything
One truth always stays the same
You're still you
After all
You're still you
I look up to
Everything you are
In my eyes you do no wrong
And I believe in you
Although you never asked me to
I will remember you
And what life put you through
And in this cruel and lonely world
I found one love
You're still you
After all
You're still you
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Rise of Hell*mann
The sea has captured her heart, but not her mind. Jennidia has lived among the mer people seeking out her destiny. Yet as she wondered off, she left that hope of it behind as she found ruins. Cast out was the darkened land that was once Argoth. She sat on the shores as her hair grew. The color drained from it as white hair flowed from her finger tips. She found bones of dead fish washed upon shore. She fastened them to make a comb.
As she groomed herself a hand reached out, she jumped nearly 3 feet in the air. She looked to see what connected to the hand as she followed the arm, to a shoulder, to a...Cliff? She looked up into the eyes of the Guard of Balsidhe. Her personal protector of Balsidhe. The land of the Fae. He was a great friend of Creag Emmons, the very King of Fae. Her husband. Cliff extended her hand and offered her solitude with him. But what she did not know, is that he had been watching her. He had known of her cast out to sea. Known of her voyage to find her way. The chilling of her heart. He had watched it grow. Watched her body change. He knew that Lilith lived inside her for he too was vampire, and felt the Goddess ever changing inside the fallen angel.
"Come!" he commanded as she followed. They wondered through the woods to the heart of Argoth. Were nothing but ruins stood. Argoth was once ruled by a Dark Mage, named Damian Darkheart. He was once a great Dragon named Witchfire Breed. The Arch Mage of Aglarond. A great ally, and friend to Jennidia when she first came to Aglarond. He taught her much, and she excepted his teachings. Yet one day Witchfire vanished, and the rise of Argoth formed. As it rouse from the earth a great demon formed calling himself Damian Darkheart. No one knew it was the great Arch Mage Witchfire. Only the Guild of Mages knew. Yet they worked around the clock to save the Arch Mage. A seerer named Sabia Sparkle, who had fallen in love with the Arch Mage, did what she could to help. She locked herself into the tower for days working on a cure.
Yet Damian became more and more, of what Witchfire struggled against. As his kingdom rouse many beings of darkness formed. Demons formed through a void brought on by an Elf name Vondred, who was betrayed by an Angel, cast out through time. As this rift was separated it cast out the Chaos Demons. A new era of demon that is uncontrolled, by man or beat. Not even Damian could control these beast.
They began to wonder Argoth. Destroying all who stood in its way. The Drow began to form as they too came forth from their caves, killing off their old llharess *Matrons* they cast off towards the light lands *Aglarond* Great wars were fought, and Damian grew in numbers. But the Chaos Lord dracoth was not a beast to make deals. He drove Damian into the ground as they forged a great war. Demon against darkness. Magic against Ancient will. It was the largest battle that even the angels couldn't stop.
Heaven stood watched as the two beings of great power imploded, and sent Argoth into nothing but ruins. The Drow cast back into the underdark as they prayed to Lloth. Jennidia's brother Cyliss lost faith in the old ways, and left the pit of Hell, forming the great protector Akasha, who is now the Queen of Hell. She stands at the gates in all her glory waiting for an unsuspecting victim.
Yet as the ruins of Argoth began to fade, and become nothing of dark tales. Cliff had begun to set up refuge there. Watching Jennidia as she became the Queen of Siren. He saw her potential, and knew that he wanted to keep her beside himself forever. No matter what The Fae King wanted. She was NEVER to return to Balsidhe.
Not by his hand at least. As he watched and waiting, she grew more and more closer to the shores of Argoth. As she finally arrived he was there. Waiting and ready. He offered her food and shelter as she confided in him, her greatest secrets. Her fears, her dreams. Trusting him as though her was Creag himself. Yet...this being of darkness is far form the Fae King, as he lost it. Unable to take the lust that burned in him, he over powered Jennidia and imprisonment her in an old temple dedicated to the beings of darkness. (Vampires). Deep in the crypts of Argoth Jennidia was raped, beaten, tortured by this..things. Through his lust, he had forgotten his own hunger as he began to weaken. He took it upon himself to feed from Jennidia.
As he did the very essence of Lilith was there, waiting. She laughed as she poured into him. She had watched his brutal attack on Jennidia, and was quiet pleased with herself. So she appointed him her new champion. She filled his veins as he began to change. A hunger for Jennidia became near insanity as he let out a great war like cry. His body shook as it changed, and formed. Wings split from his back. His face pulled, and became taunt with the vision of nothing but death.
Yet even in his transformation, Lilith was still NOT satisfied. She split him in two. Causing a great rift in his entire being. Created Magdalenamarie a female version of Cliff. As he formed a name came with him. The Bauglir; meaning embodiment Death. As Magda became Lammas, the voice of death. As this great change took over Cliff he lifted his arms as he rouse the ruins. Shifting them to rise, and place one by one, and create a GREAT KINGDOM!. The Kingdom of Argoth.
Again he took Jennidia night after night to his bed. She screamed in agony as finally she found herself with child. She prayed for release of this burden as Faun, a Drowess stayed by her side. After the child was born, the Heir of Argoth Edwyrd Constantine she prayed for release. Death, ANYTHING! For she feared the Bauglir would visit her bed again. The Bauglir through her pregnancy erected a great Tower. Were the Sirens, could come to worship their deities.
The night after her pregnancy a being of light visited her, and granted her a wish. It set upon her a Chasity belt, fastened in divine wisdom. The key, unknown and yet to be found. As Jennidia woke to this metal contraption she cried out in happiness. Sure enough the news of this reached the Bauglir as his rage flew. He sent riders to Aglarond the land of light to find out who would enter Jennidia's chambers. Yet none was found. A Kender, Mugen offered to help as Kenders are known for their wisdom in trickery and lock picking. He was able to succeed. The Bauglir payed him in a great bag of silver and sent him on his way. He continued to go to Jennidia's bed as she again tried to find a way from him.
One day lost on the shores of Argoth was a great book. A spell book that could be none other then Hispa's private sorceress books. She took it with her. Through her findings this book possessed great knowledge of dark magic. As she began to sucumb to the book, a great dragon had found her tower, and took refuse outside. He began to visit her. With each passing night, Pheromere, an ancient dragon had taken pity on Jennidia. He offered her a taste of freedom as her Dragon, to fly across the skies. She agreed, but with a price. For a Dragon to offer his saddle they must be bound to one another. Mind, Body, and Soul, they must be united.
Desperate, Jennidia agreed. She took unto this Dragon into herself. A ritual was cast as they created a bond that no mortal can break. They took to the skies. She found her love, her heart among the rocks of Aglarond looking of her, as she went to him. The Fae King, not seeing his wife in decades refused to believe the woman before him. He cast her away. She pleaded with him. He took her home. The talked as she grew weaker, realizing that the tower had a magical hold on her. She was unable to leave it long.
As her, and her Dragon were about to leave back to the outskirts of Argoth. A great light formed. A gentle voice rang out as it called to Jennidia. The sound of a flute could be heart as she shielded her eyes from the sight. "Momma, it's okay. Don't cover your eyes" was all she could hear. Like a gentle lullaby. The Fae King flabbergasted to such a sight called out the being of light. "Wha..What are you?" he spoke. She giggled and told them, that she was their lost daughter. Taken in by Camael himself Jennidia's father. He had named her Cherish.
Creag dropped to his kneels as Jennidia feel to the floor, from exhaustion, the Tower, and sheer mental over load. The girl told her father of how she had been watching over Jennidia and Creag, and how she didn't EVER want to see them apart again. Creag explained to their daughter that I had changed, and that mere love could not save me.
She smiled and sighed. Understanding his words, and his heart. She ascended back to Heaven as she kissed Jennidia on the fore head, and whispered her love for her mother. Jennidia awoke to being returned to her Tower by Pheromere. She was a lost for words, as she sat staring back at her. As a wyrm Pheromere is able to change into any being he wishes. He sat looking at her as a darkened Drow not sure if a large dragon would fit in her chambers. She awake and smiled, yet her thoughts quickly changed as the vision of the night before came forward. Pheromere shook his head as he laied her back to sleep. She nearly passed out as visions of her husband, and her daughter fought in her dreams.
A man came to the Bauglir exclaiming the need to speak with Jennidia. By this time the Bauglir was beginning to grow tired of calling her his Toy, so he devised a new name "His Melendur" As he sent for the Melendur he listened to this hooded man. As Jennidia arrived at the throne room, the Bauglir exclaimed to her of a man wishing to seek her audience. She peered to the man under the hood. She did not recognize him, so she turned to leave. The hooded man spoke "Lady of Balsidhe, don't go" she recognized the voice as she turned to see the man behind the hood. She spoke gently "Vondred?" he nodded "Aye, it's me" smiling as he strode over bowing before Jennidia. She was lost for words, and told him to rise. She asked the Bauglir if they could be alone.
He granted her the right. She left as she followed Vondred to the docks. He stood before his great ship as he made a fire upon the beach. There they sat and began to talk of things of old. He spoke to her of a long journey, but had to return to Aglarond, when he had found the Lady of Fae had been taken, and turned into darkness.
She nodded to his questions, and not once hid from him, what she was. He was enraged, at what she had told him. His rage filled him as he knelt before her. He pulled the hood, and cloak from his body as the very darkness melted from him. He stood before her as a long forgotten Elven Warrior, of a great clan. Long forgotten, yet a proud race.
He stood before her in all his glory as he took her hand in his. He told her of a great love, that he had held back. That the day she married his sanity left him, yet to see the love that the Fae King held it helped him keep his ground. Yet, even in his journey he always stayed near. Watching, making sure that the lady of his heart was safe and well.
Jennidia was unable to handle so much in such few years drew back her hand, and snapped at him in hatred. Her heart has grown so cold that she has lost her will to understand his own love. They argued said a few choice words and departed on the shore. Vondred went to the land of the light the next day, seeking out the Fae King. He told the King of all that he had seen, and the he had returned.
He also felt he need to confess. He told the Fae King, of his love for Jennidia, and how the love of the King kept him sane. The Fae King knowing of Jennidia's beauty understood Vondred's pain, and sighed. He acknowledged that he felt great love for his wife. But he did not believe that she loved him anymore. Vondred contested that untrue, and told the King of her love for him. That her thoughts were unable to stand without thinking a single thought of her King she longed to see.
Creag, beside himself with this discovery sent Vondred back to Argoth to watch over her. To blend in with Argoth itself. Yet as Vondred advanced and grew nearer, Jennidia grew more impatient with him. His lost his will to care, his own heart growing cold. He returned to Aglarond to tell the King that he was unable to be near Jennidia, yet on his way. He lost it, he fell tot he ground and called out his hate for all things. He pulled his dagger and took his own life. As his body began to die he called out to Jennidia. Yet in some strange way, she heart him, and ran to the Bauglir. She told him of a man that was hurt, and was a patron of Argoth.
He agreed to the rescue, and send a demoness, and dragon with Jennidia to aid her in her quest. As they arrived Vondred was already lost. His body lay limp in the sand, as two angels hovered over him. Jennidia enraged drew her sword, and demanded they leave the body at once. They refused. Calling the very abyss of hell, from wench she learned from the book that Hispa has bestowed so graciously upon her, she casted the darkness towards the angels. One knelt to pray for reinforcement, and the other took up arms. Jennidia, fully enraged charged forward. The Dragon spouting fire, and the Demoness with the flames of hell destroyed the two angels before they even lifted a finger. Jennidia picked up the limp body of Vondred, and climbed onto the assisting Dragon.
They returned to Argoth. She took him to the gates of hell, were she asked Akasha to rise his body. Akasha refused, and told her to gain the knowledge herself. Jennidia, nodded, and took him to the ruins below Argoth. The Bauglir kept them to remind her of his lust for her. Yet they did not feel that way to her at the moment. All she could think of was the great power they held. Her son nearby playing her wondered in. The dragon changed, as the Demoness knelt to pray.
Jennidia willed all that she had into Vondred, as did the other three. Edwyrd, Pink, and the Dragon. They called upon the greatness of Hell. It worked, and the very essence of darkness filled Vondred's body. He rouse, and formed a great evil. Near as dark as the Bauglir. He walked towards Jennidia as he extended his hand to her. She nearly jumped out of her skin. She closed the circle and left. The Demoness, stayed with Vondred as did Edwyrd, who instantly took a liking to him. Even still today, he has not left his side.
Jennidia returned to her tower, as she took to her book. Her Dragon Pheromere tried to sooth her, but her mind would not rest. She drained the remaining knowledge form the book as it took her. Pheromere had drifted off to sleep, but when he has awoke Jennidia was gone...
The book had taken her. When will she return?
As she groomed herself a hand reached out, she jumped nearly 3 feet in the air. She looked to see what connected to the hand as she followed the arm, to a shoulder, to a...Cliff? She looked up into the eyes of the Guard of Balsidhe. Her personal protector of Balsidhe. The land of the Fae. He was a great friend of Creag Emmons, the very King of Fae. Her husband. Cliff extended her hand and offered her solitude with him. But what she did not know, is that he had been watching her. He had known of her cast out to sea. Known of her voyage to find her way. The chilling of her heart. He had watched it grow. Watched her body change. He knew that Lilith lived inside her for he too was vampire, and felt the Goddess ever changing inside the fallen angel.
"Come!" he commanded as she followed. They wondered through the woods to the heart of Argoth. Were nothing but ruins stood. Argoth was once ruled by a Dark Mage, named Damian Darkheart. He was once a great Dragon named Witchfire Breed. The Arch Mage of Aglarond. A great ally, and friend to Jennidia when she first came to Aglarond. He taught her much, and she excepted his teachings. Yet one day Witchfire vanished, and the rise of Argoth formed. As it rouse from the earth a great demon formed calling himself Damian Darkheart. No one knew it was the great Arch Mage Witchfire. Only the Guild of Mages knew. Yet they worked around the clock to save the Arch Mage. A seerer named Sabia Sparkle, who had fallen in love with the Arch Mage, did what she could to help. She locked herself into the tower for days working on a cure.
Yet Damian became more and more, of what Witchfire struggled against. As his kingdom rouse many beings of darkness formed. Demons formed through a void brought on by an Elf name Vondred, who was betrayed by an Angel, cast out through time. As this rift was separated it cast out the Chaos Demons. A new era of demon that is uncontrolled, by man or beat. Not even Damian could control these beast.
They began to wonder Argoth. Destroying all who stood in its way. The Drow began to form as they too came forth from their caves, killing off their old llharess *Matrons* they cast off towards the light lands *Aglarond* Great wars were fought, and Damian grew in numbers. But the Chaos Lord dracoth was not a beast to make deals. He drove Damian into the ground as they forged a great war. Demon against darkness. Magic against Ancient will. It was the largest battle that even the angels couldn't stop.
Heaven stood watched as the two beings of great power imploded, and sent Argoth into nothing but ruins. The Drow cast back into the underdark as they prayed to Lloth. Jennidia's brother Cyliss lost faith in the old ways, and left the pit of Hell, forming the great protector Akasha, who is now the Queen of Hell. She stands at the gates in all her glory waiting for an unsuspecting victim.
Yet as the ruins of Argoth began to fade, and become nothing of dark tales. Cliff had begun to set up refuge there. Watching Jennidia as she became the Queen of Siren. He saw her potential, and knew that he wanted to keep her beside himself forever. No matter what The Fae King wanted. She was NEVER to return to Balsidhe.
Not by his hand at least. As he watched and waiting, she grew more and more closer to the shores of Argoth. As she finally arrived he was there. Waiting and ready. He offered her food and shelter as she confided in him, her greatest secrets. Her fears, her dreams. Trusting him as though her was Creag himself. Yet...this being of darkness is far form the Fae King, as he lost it. Unable to take the lust that burned in him, he over powered Jennidia and imprisonment her in an old temple dedicated to the beings of darkness. (Vampires). Deep in the crypts of Argoth Jennidia was raped, beaten, tortured by this..things. Through his lust, he had forgotten his own hunger as he began to weaken. He took it upon himself to feed from Jennidia.
As he did the very essence of Lilith was there, waiting. She laughed as she poured into him. She had watched his brutal attack on Jennidia, and was quiet pleased with herself. So she appointed him her new champion. She filled his veins as he began to change. A hunger for Jennidia became near insanity as he let out a great war like cry. His body shook as it changed, and formed. Wings split from his back. His face pulled, and became taunt with the vision of nothing but death.
Yet even in his transformation, Lilith was still NOT satisfied. She split him in two. Causing a great rift in his entire being. Created Magdalenamarie a female version of Cliff. As he formed a name came with him. The Bauglir; meaning embodiment Death. As Magda became Lammas, the voice of death. As this great change took over Cliff he lifted his arms as he rouse the ruins. Shifting them to rise, and place one by one, and create a GREAT KINGDOM!. The Kingdom of Argoth.
Again he took Jennidia night after night to his bed. She screamed in agony as finally she found herself with child. She prayed for release of this burden as Faun, a Drowess stayed by her side. After the child was born, the Heir of Argoth Edwyrd Constantine she prayed for release. Death, ANYTHING! For she feared the Bauglir would visit her bed again. The Bauglir through her pregnancy erected a great Tower. Were the Sirens, could come to worship their deities.
The night after her pregnancy a being of light visited her, and granted her a wish. It set upon her a Chasity belt, fastened in divine wisdom. The key, unknown and yet to be found. As Jennidia woke to this metal contraption she cried out in happiness. Sure enough the news of this reached the Bauglir as his rage flew. He sent riders to Aglarond the land of light to find out who would enter Jennidia's chambers. Yet none was found. A Kender, Mugen offered to help as Kenders are known for their wisdom in trickery and lock picking. He was able to succeed. The Bauglir payed him in a great bag of silver and sent him on his way. He continued to go to Jennidia's bed as she again tried to find a way from him.
One day lost on the shores of Argoth was a great book. A spell book that could be none other then Hispa's private sorceress books. She took it with her. Through her findings this book possessed great knowledge of dark magic. As she began to sucumb to the book, a great dragon had found her tower, and took refuse outside. He began to visit her. With each passing night, Pheromere, an ancient dragon had taken pity on Jennidia. He offered her a taste of freedom as her Dragon, to fly across the skies. She agreed, but with a price. For a Dragon to offer his saddle they must be bound to one another. Mind, Body, and Soul, they must be united.
Desperate, Jennidia agreed. She took unto this Dragon into herself. A ritual was cast as they created a bond that no mortal can break. They took to the skies. She found her love, her heart among the rocks of Aglarond looking of her, as she went to him. The Fae King, not seeing his wife in decades refused to believe the woman before him. He cast her away. She pleaded with him. He took her home. The talked as she grew weaker, realizing that the tower had a magical hold on her. She was unable to leave it long.
As her, and her Dragon were about to leave back to the outskirts of Argoth. A great light formed. A gentle voice rang out as it called to Jennidia. The sound of a flute could be heart as she shielded her eyes from the sight. "Momma, it's okay. Don't cover your eyes" was all she could hear. Like a gentle lullaby. The Fae King flabbergasted to such a sight called out the being of light. "Wha..What are you?" he spoke. She giggled and told them, that she was their lost daughter. Taken in by Camael himself Jennidia's father. He had named her Cherish.
Creag dropped to his kneels as Jennidia feel to the floor, from exhaustion, the Tower, and sheer mental over load. The girl told her father of how she had been watching over Jennidia and Creag, and how she didn't EVER want to see them apart again. Creag explained to their daughter that I had changed, and that mere love could not save me.
She smiled and sighed. Understanding his words, and his heart. She ascended back to Heaven as she kissed Jennidia on the fore head, and whispered her love for her mother. Jennidia awoke to being returned to her Tower by Pheromere. She was a lost for words, as she sat staring back at her. As a wyrm Pheromere is able to change into any being he wishes. He sat looking at her as a darkened Drow not sure if a large dragon would fit in her chambers. She awake and smiled, yet her thoughts quickly changed as the vision of the night before came forward. Pheromere shook his head as he laied her back to sleep. She nearly passed out as visions of her husband, and her daughter fought in her dreams.
A man came to the Bauglir exclaiming the need to speak with Jennidia. By this time the Bauglir was beginning to grow tired of calling her his Toy, so he devised a new name "His Melendur" As he sent for the Melendur he listened to this hooded man. As Jennidia arrived at the throne room, the Bauglir exclaimed to her of a man wishing to seek her audience. She peered to the man under the hood. She did not recognize him, so she turned to leave. The hooded man spoke "Lady of Balsidhe, don't go" she recognized the voice as she turned to see the man behind the hood. She spoke gently "Vondred?" he nodded "Aye, it's me" smiling as he strode over bowing before Jennidia. She was lost for words, and told him to rise. She asked the Bauglir if they could be alone.
He granted her the right. She left as she followed Vondred to the docks. He stood before his great ship as he made a fire upon the beach. There they sat and began to talk of things of old. He spoke to her of a long journey, but had to return to Aglarond, when he had found the Lady of Fae had been taken, and turned into darkness.
She nodded to his questions, and not once hid from him, what she was. He was enraged, at what she had told him. His rage filled him as he knelt before her. He pulled the hood, and cloak from his body as the very darkness melted from him. He stood before her as a long forgotten Elven Warrior, of a great clan. Long forgotten, yet a proud race.
He stood before her in all his glory as he took her hand in his. He told her of a great love, that he had held back. That the day she married his sanity left him, yet to see the love that the Fae King held it helped him keep his ground. Yet, even in his journey he always stayed near. Watching, making sure that the lady of his heart was safe and well.
Jennidia was unable to handle so much in such few years drew back her hand, and snapped at him in hatred. Her heart has grown so cold that she has lost her will to understand his own love. They argued said a few choice words and departed on the shore. Vondred went to the land of the light the next day, seeking out the Fae King. He told the King of all that he had seen, and the he had returned.
He also felt he need to confess. He told the Fae King, of his love for Jennidia, and how the love of the King kept him sane. The Fae King knowing of Jennidia's beauty understood Vondred's pain, and sighed. He acknowledged that he felt great love for his wife. But he did not believe that she loved him anymore. Vondred contested that untrue, and told the King of her love for him. That her thoughts were unable to stand without thinking a single thought of her King she longed to see.
Creag, beside himself with this discovery sent Vondred back to Argoth to watch over her. To blend in with Argoth itself. Yet as Vondred advanced and grew nearer, Jennidia grew more impatient with him. His lost his will to care, his own heart growing cold. He returned to Aglarond to tell the King that he was unable to be near Jennidia, yet on his way. He lost it, he fell tot he ground and called out his hate for all things. He pulled his dagger and took his own life. As his body began to die he called out to Jennidia. Yet in some strange way, she heart him, and ran to the Bauglir. She told him of a man that was hurt, and was a patron of Argoth.
He agreed to the rescue, and send a demoness, and dragon with Jennidia to aid her in her quest. As they arrived Vondred was already lost. His body lay limp in the sand, as two angels hovered over him. Jennidia enraged drew her sword, and demanded they leave the body at once. They refused. Calling the very abyss of hell, from wench she learned from the book that Hispa has bestowed so graciously upon her, she casted the darkness towards the angels. One knelt to pray for reinforcement, and the other took up arms. Jennidia, fully enraged charged forward. The Dragon spouting fire, and the Demoness with the flames of hell destroyed the two angels before they even lifted a finger. Jennidia picked up the limp body of Vondred, and climbed onto the assisting Dragon.
They returned to Argoth. She took him to the gates of hell, were she asked Akasha to rise his body. Akasha refused, and told her to gain the knowledge herself. Jennidia, nodded, and took him to the ruins below Argoth. The Bauglir kept them to remind her of his lust for her. Yet they did not feel that way to her at the moment. All she could think of was the great power they held. Her son nearby playing her wondered in. The dragon changed, as the Demoness knelt to pray.
Jennidia willed all that she had into Vondred, as did the other three. Edwyrd, Pink, and the Dragon. They called upon the greatness of Hell. It worked, and the very essence of darkness filled Vondred's body. He rouse, and formed a great evil. Near as dark as the Bauglir. He walked towards Jennidia as he extended his hand to her. She nearly jumped out of her skin. She closed the circle and left. The Demoness, stayed with Vondred as did Edwyrd, who instantly took a liking to him. Even still today, he has not left his side.
Jennidia returned to her tower, as she took to her book. Her Dragon Pheromere tried to sooth her, but her mind would not rest. She drained the remaining knowledge form the book as it took her. Pheromere had drifted off to sleep, but when he has awoke Jennidia was gone...
The book had taken her. When will she return?
Master of the Pieces
Graced and bound with the thoughts of others
Jennidia holds the night like covers.
Light of reverence fought, and tuned;
Worldly possesion ring out
Each thrust of light shoot through the sky
a figure stands over others
hidden through the mask of time
through the mask of others
thought a fight that is NEVER won
Remember I stand there, on the brink of existance
on the side of never ending vast being of endless love
Love comes in many forms
Many ways...
Keep it close...For I am there
I am waiting in side you
LET ME OUT!
LET ME SORE
Can you feel me?
Can you hear me?
Can you sense me?
Why fight it,
Why deny it?
I will always be there waiting
Gracing, the night
shinning the stars brighter with each step
WAKE UP!
Your home..
Your found
Your cared
Your FREE!
Jennidia holds the night like covers.
Light of reverence fought, and tuned;
Worldly possesion ring out
Each thrust of light shoot through the sky
a figure stands over others
hidden through the mask of time
through the mask of others
thought a fight that is NEVER won
Remember I stand there, on the brink of existance
on the side of never ending vast being of endless love
Love comes in many forms
Many ways...
Keep it close...For I am there
I am waiting in side you
LET ME OUT!
LET ME SORE
Can you feel me?
Can you hear me?
Can you sense me?
Why fight it,
Why deny it?
I will always be there waiting
Gracing, the night
shinning the stars brighter with each step
WAKE UP!
Your home..
Your found
Your cared
Your FREE!
DON'T GIVE UP!
Don’t give up
It’s just the weight of the world
When your heart’s heavy, I
I will lift it for you
Don’t give up
Because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you, I
I will break it for you
Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don’t give up
Because you are loved
Don’t give up
It’s just the hurt
That you hide
When you’re lost inside, I
I’ll be there to find you
Don’t give up
Because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you I
I will shine to guide you
Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don’t give up
Because you are loved
You are loved
Don’t give up
It's just the weight of the world
Don't give up
Everyone needs to be heard
You are loved
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
The Book is Open
Time stands, as the lost of this womans daughter drives her to the sea. She is unable to contain her mind as her heart begins to freeze. She cries out to the gods in hate, as the last of her will is sweeped with the tide. As she wondered off into the darkness of the waters, madness seems to take what is left of her. Her body loses the last of its shine as it turns to an ashen white. Her legs form a blood red veined tail that seems to darken with her taste for revenge. As her mothers hate consumes her she listens to the voices that fill her mind.
One night as the dawn began to approach she hide behind a stone crevice to watch the sailors dock. She heard a movement in the water as she moved closer. Off of the shores of Aglarond Bay a group of mers began to form. She watched as she began to learn.
An older male stood out amoung the rest as he rouse from the waters. As if to lead and orcestra. His head hung high to the heavens as he opens his arms from the waters. As he raised his arms his voice rang out across the ocean. The others joined in as the sun began to crest over the herizon.
Jennidia stayed in the shadows as she watched the song of the mers sing in rejoice to the sun, and the sea. They sang for all life, and happiness. As the song began to subside Jennidia slide from the rock and decended to her grotto. Yet she heard a movement behind her.
She quickly turned as the same male stood behind her eyesing her through his golden eyes. "Tala" he spoke, in a firm yet comforting way. He was well formed with adorned jewels on his arms, and neck. Showing he was of high importance. Jennidia eyed him not sure if she was going to fight. The merman stepped forward as he approached her. She straightened her stance as she showed no signs of fear, just concern in her being. He too seemed not to sure of her as his eyes darted across her own.
She did not speak as she had no words to say. The male finding there was not going to be any on going remarks puffed out his chest as if this was not the first time he had introduced himself. "I'm Orion, Mate to Lady Drea keeper of the Mer People of Aglarond. Who might you be?" Jennidia's thoughts pondered for a moment as she reconized the name of the merman. They had met before on a few accasions with her husband. Being the consort of the King of Fae brought her to be known to many leaders of the land. For meetings of the mind had taken place. She was known as the Lady of Balsidhe, yet she never really spoke informaly to many.
She noded to the merman and spoke clear and strong. "I know of you Lord Orion, we've met a few. I am Jennidia." His golden eyes seem to take in the knowledge as he looked past her lost in thought. He slowly came back to his sense as he looked over her form speaking in the form of a question. "You are the lady of Balsidhe?..." His voice tailed off not sure how to finish such a question. Her eyes lowed as did her guard as she realized he was not a foe. "Many find their paths, yet mine is astray...at the moment" she spoke softly, more to herself.
The merman noded "Aye, it maybe so yet we are cousins. I've never seen a Fae become a mer before" he said watching her. Memories flooded her mind of the time when she ran from Balsidhe towards the shore of Aglarond Bay, screaming as she tore her gown from her running out to the sea, praying for the tide to take her under. Yet she did not drawn. A thing that Sidhe can not do. They cannot drawn, yet as she struggled against the current her mind became black as a flash struck her binding her legs as the dark crimson scales formed.
Orion spoke to bring her thoughts back."Lady Jennidia, you seem lost. May I be of assitance". Jennidia shook her head as she cleared her mind of the pain of such a change. She looked at the merman as she thought of her own question "What was that you were singing earlier?" Orion grined as he again puffed out his chest in a form of pride. "That is the song of the mer-people passed to the sea, to greet the sun as it graces our waters." Jennidia noded as she listened feeling his pride of the sea, and of his clan. "May I learn such a song?" she asked. Orion pondered for a moment and noded "Aye Lady Jennidia you may, since you are of the mers. I don't see why not"
Jennidia smiled as they continued on their conversation as he taught her how to sing to the sun, and the sea. After a while she too formed her own voice. Yet the desire to sing to the sun was not what caught her mind. After a time she continued to visit Orion as he taught her the ways of the mers. Eventually he introduced her to the rest of the mer-people along with his lovely Mate, and his beautiful daughter.
The mers seem to do everything together. They even went on hunting parties as they took only what they needed to survive. Orion seemed to be one of the most skilled males when it came to hunting, since his skin blended in with the sea plants. His prey seemed to not tell him from the plants. Which was a bad mistake on their part. Jennidia began to understand how he was looked upon so well. He was very wise, and always made sure each member of the clan was well cared for.
Jennidia began to respect Orion more, as she watched him lead his people. Lady Drea had taken it upon herself to make herself well known to Jennidia since she was the leader of this clan. Which Jennidia took great care in. She knew this was not her clan so she respected their notice of her. She learned that no matter what may take her that mer's never shed blood amoung themselves. They are all family and none will break such a bond.
A rule Jennidia learned very early on. As Jennidia continued to learn of the ways of the mers, she found herself growing farther, and farther away from the clan. One night as she was sitting upon a rock watching Orion train another male how to hunt for fish. A strange shark-like male wondered over to Orion. He asked if Orion knew of a mer named Jennidia. Orion raised his eyes up to the rocks and noded in her direction.
The shark-like male wondered over and bowed at her feet. "M'lady, I have been searching for you since I have wondered into these waters" Jennidia stared at the male blankly as she watched him stare at her tail. She moved her hand as in a way to rise as he noded straightening his stance. "What do you seek from me?" She asked. "My Master has beseeched you. He ask for you to seek him out." Jennidia eyed the male as she noded "Tell your Master he may speak to me. I will be here the next eve." He noded and slide from the shore back to the waters and out from sight. Orion wondered over to Jennidia and asked her who the male was. She merely shook her head and shrugged "No idea".
"Hmm... we shall keep an eye on him then" Orion spoke seeming a bit concerned. Jennidia told him that he was to return with his Master the next eve. Orion noded and spoke of sleep. She too agreed and off she slide to her grotto.
The next eve she wondered back to her rock as Orion began to show the younger male how to make a spear. As they talked amoungest themselves Jennidia watched as a full moon apeared behind some clouds. Rising from the waters a beast rose. Jennidia watched as this being slide from the waters. It was a creature she had never seen before. He had pointy hair, beautiful golden armor, and instead of legs, or a tail he had tenticles. He placed his hand on his chest planting and bowed to Jennidia "Tala Queen Jennidia" he spoke with a strong voice. Jennidia blinked as she stared at this creature. Orion handed the younger mer his spear as he swam over towards Jennidia, and the creature.
"Tala Sir" Orion spoke strong yet openly. The male creature turned to Orion as he noded "Tala" he responded with a strong sense of being. Orion looked past the male towrads Jennidia and spoke clearly "Everything okay Lady Jennidia". Jennidia noded as she watched the squid like creature. "Aye I am well" Orion leaned against the rock as in a way to say that he was not going to go far. The younger male wondered over as he began to speak to Orion about different types of fish. They began to engross themselves in conversation as the squid like creature turned to Jennidia.
"My Queen, I have searched the seas for you." he said as he lowered his head. Jennidia spoke in a confused yet strong mannor. "I am not royalty amoung mer M'lord, so I am no Queen." The male blinked as he lifted his head to her. "Aye m'lady but you are. You are the Queen of the Abyss, you are the mistress of all that is darkness in the sea." She was lost for words, as she listened to this creature speak to her of pain and hate. "My army is yours my Queen" he said as he bowed lower.
Orion looked up as he cleared his throat. "M'lord, I've not known of your kind, yet you speak of an army. May we speak of what you seek here." The creature stood in front of Jennidia as he seemed to take command. You could clearly see he was a creature of military as he took command of his own stance. He puffed out his chest in pride as he spoke of his men, and the travels they seek. "I seek to ride the land-walkers of their disgrace amoung our waters M'lord" the creature spoke with a quant bow reconizing Orion's stature.
"And how to you suppose this happen Sir" Orion said with his golden eyes turning into a form of question. The creature stood strong as he ran his hand over his weapon "Any means necissary M'lord". Orion shook his head and spoke openly "Sir, you seem of great mind, yet we mer-people are a peaceful race, and have worked hard to bring peace with man, I wish no war with them" The creatured noded in understanding "Aye that maybe so, but they are vile creatures tresspassing on our waters. A time will come to chose cousin." Orion noded and understood the creatures words, as he motioned to the younger mer to depart. "Lady Jenndia it is growing late, I must return to Lady Drea, will you be well?" Jennidia was not to sure herself but she did not wish to seem frail so she noded "Aye, I will be well thank you Orion"
After hours of converstation the creature taught Jennidia the power's that was given to her. The abilities that her mother Lilith had sent to her, and why she was a mer. So many quesitons this creature filled her thoughts with. Finally she knew her perpase, and it was not to serves...it was to command. To destroy all that was in her way, and this creature this beast of many gave her the weapon and power she needed.
As the night went on her heart grew colder as the vision of blood shed filled her thoughts. The creature noded to her as the morning began to rise. "I must return your highness. I will return. My servant is at your command." he bowed one last time as he wondered back to the debts of the sea. She too returned to her grotto as she thought of things to come. Wondering if her own husband knows of her absense after so long. Only the darkness will know....
One night as the dawn began to approach she hide behind a stone crevice to watch the sailors dock. She heard a movement in the water as she moved closer. Off of the shores of Aglarond Bay a group of mers began to form. She watched as she began to learn.
An older male stood out amoung the rest as he rouse from the waters. As if to lead and orcestra. His head hung high to the heavens as he opens his arms from the waters. As he raised his arms his voice rang out across the ocean. The others joined in as the sun began to crest over the herizon.
Jennidia stayed in the shadows as she watched the song of the mers sing in rejoice to the sun, and the sea. They sang for all life, and happiness. As the song began to subside Jennidia slide from the rock and decended to her grotto. Yet she heard a movement behind her.
She quickly turned as the same male stood behind her eyesing her through his golden eyes. "Tala" he spoke, in a firm yet comforting way. He was well formed with adorned jewels on his arms, and neck. Showing he was of high importance. Jennidia eyed him not sure if she was going to fight. The merman stepped forward as he approached her. She straightened her stance as she showed no signs of fear, just concern in her being. He too seemed not to sure of her as his eyes darted across her own.
She did not speak as she had no words to say. The male finding there was not going to be any on going remarks puffed out his chest as if this was not the first time he had introduced himself. "I'm Orion, Mate to Lady Drea keeper of the Mer People of Aglarond. Who might you be?" Jennidia's thoughts pondered for a moment as she reconized the name of the merman. They had met before on a few accasions with her husband. Being the consort of the King of Fae brought her to be known to many leaders of the land. For meetings of the mind had taken place. She was known as the Lady of Balsidhe, yet she never really spoke informaly to many.
She noded to the merman and spoke clear and strong. "I know of you Lord Orion, we've met a few. I am Jennidia." His golden eyes seem to take in the knowledge as he looked past her lost in thought. He slowly came back to his sense as he looked over her form speaking in the form of a question. "You are the lady of Balsidhe?..." His voice tailed off not sure how to finish such a question. Her eyes lowed as did her guard as she realized he was not a foe. "Many find their paths, yet mine is astray...at the moment" she spoke softly, more to herself.
The merman noded "Aye, it maybe so yet we are cousins. I've never seen a Fae become a mer before" he said watching her. Memories flooded her mind of the time when she ran from Balsidhe towards the shore of Aglarond Bay, screaming as she tore her gown from her running out to the sea, praying for the tide to take her under. Yet she did not drawn. A thing that Sidhe can not do. They cannot drawn, yet as she struggled against the current her mind became black as a flash struck her binding her legs as the dark crimson scales formed.
Orion spoke to bring her thoughts back."Lady Jennidia, you seem lost. May I be of assitance". Jennidia shook her head as she cleared her mind of the pain of such a change. She looked at the merman as she thought of her own question "What was that you were singing earlier?" Orion grined as he again puffed out his chest in a form of pride. "That is the song of the mer-people passed to the sea, to greet the sun as it graces our waters." Jennidia noded as she listened feeling his pride of the sea, and of his clan. "May I learn such a song?" she asked. Orion pondered for a moment and noded "Aye Lady Jennidia you may, since you are of the mers. I don't see why not"
Jennidia smiled as they continued on their conversation as he taught her how to sing to the sun, and the sea. After a while she too formed her own voice. Yet the desire to sing to the sun was not what caught her mind. After a time she continued to visit Orion as he taught her the ways of the mers. Eventually he introduced her to the rest of the mer-people along with his lovely Mate, and his beautiful daughter.
The mers seem to do everything together. They even went on hunting parties as they took only what they needed to survive. Orion seemed to be one of the most skilled males when it came to hunting, since his skin blended in with the sea plants. His prey seemed to not tell him from the plants. Which was a bad mistake on their part. Jennidia began to understand how he was looked upon so well. He was very wise, and always made sure each member of the clan was well cared for.
Jennidia began to respect Orion more, as she watched him lead his people. Lady Drea had taken it upon herself to make herself well known to Jennidia since she was the leader of this clan. Which Jennidia took great care in. She knew this was not her clan so she respected their notice of her. She learned that no matter what may take her that mer's never shed blood amoung themselves. They are all family and none will break such a bond.
A rule Jennidia learned very early on. As Jennidia continued to learn of the ways of the mers, she found herself growing farther, and farther away from the clan. One night as she was sitting upon a rock watching Orion train another male how to hunt for fish. A strange shark-like male wondered over to Orion. He asked if Orion knew of a mer named Jennidia. Orion raised his eyes up to the rocks and noded in her direction.
The shark-like male wondered over and bowed at her feet. "M'lady, I have been searching for you since I have wondered into these waters" Jennidia stared at the male blankly as she watched him stare at her tail. She moved her hand as in a way to rise as he noded straightening his stance. "What do you seek from me?" She asked. "My Master has beseeched you. He ask for you to seek him out." Jennidia eyed the male as she noded "Tell your Master he may speak to me. I will be here the next eve." He noded and slide from the shore back to the waters and out from sight. Orion wondered over to Jennidia and asked her who the male was. She merely shook her head and shrugged "No idea".
"Hmm... we shall keep an eye on him then" Orion spoke seeming a bit concerned. Jennidia told him that he was to return with his Master the next eve. Orion noded and spoke of sleep. She too agreed and off she slide to her grotto.
The next eve she wondered back to her rock as Orion began to show the younger male how to make a spear. As they talked amoungest themselves Jennidia watched as a full moon apeared behind some clouds. Rising from the waters a beast rose. Jennidia watched as this being slide from the waters. It was a creature she had never seen before. He had pointy hair, beautiful golden armor, and instead of legs, or a tail he had tenticles. He placed his hand on his chest planting and bowed to Jennidia "Tala Queen Jennidia" he spoke with a strong voice. Jennidia blinked as she stared at this creature. Orion handed the younger mer his spear as he swam over towards Jennidia, and the creature.
"Tala Sir" Orion spoke strong yet openly. The male creature turned to Orion as he noded "Tala" he responded with a strong sense of being. Orion looked past the male towrads Jennidia and spoke clearly "Everything okay Lady Jennidia". Jennidia noded as she watched the squid like creature. "Aye I am well" Orion leaned against the rock as in a way to say that he was not going to go far. The younger male wondered over as he began to speak to Orion about different types of fish. They began to engross themselves in conversation as the squid like creature turned to Jennidia.
"My Queen, I have searched the seas for you." he said as he lowered his head. Jennidia spoke in a confused yet strong mannor. "I am not royalty amoung mer M'lord, so I am no Queen." The male blinked as he lifted his head to her. "Aye m'lady but you are. You are the Queen of the Abyss, you are the mistress of all that is darkness in the sea." She was lost for words, as she listened to this creature speak to her of pain and hate. "My army is yours my Queen" he said as he bowed lower.
Orion looked up as he cleared his throat. "M'lord, I've not known of your kind, yet you speak of an army. May we speak of what you seek here." The creature stood in front of Jennidia as he seemed to take command. You could clearly see he was a creature of military as he took command of his own stance. He puffed out his chest in pride as he spoke of his men, and the travels they seek. "I seek to ride the land-walkers of their disgrace amoung our waters M'lord" the creature spoke with a quant bow reconizing Orion's stature.
"And how to you suppose this happen Sir" Orion said with his golden eyes turning into a form of question. The creature stood strong as he ran his hand over his weapon "Any means necissary M'lord". Orion shook his head and spoke openly "Sir, you seem of great mind, yet we mer-people are a peaceful race, and have worked hard to bring peace with man, I wish no war with them" The creatured noded in understanding "Aye that maybe so, but they are vile creatures tresspassing on our waters. A time will come to chose cousin." Orion noded and understood the creatures words, as he motioned to the younger mer to depart. "Lady Jenndia it is growing late, I must return to Lady Drea, will you be well?" Jennidia was not to sure herself but she did not wish to seem frail so she noded "Aye, I will be well thank you Orion"
After hours of converstation the creature taught Jennidia the power's that was given to her. The abilities that her mother Lilith had sent to her, and why she was a mer. So many quesitons this creature filled her thoughts with. Finally she knew her perpase, and it was not to serves...it was to command. To destroy all that was in her way, and this creature this beast of many gave her the weapon and power she needed.
As the night went on her heart grew colder as the vision of blood shed filled her thoughts. The creature noded to her as the morning began to rise. "I must return your highness. I will return. My servant is at your command." he bowed one last time as he wondered back to the debts of the sea. She too returned to her grotto as she thought of things to come. Wondering if her own husband knows of her absense after so long. Only the darkness will know....
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Monday, September 15, 2008
What a world...
*Jennidia stroles in comfendantly and stretches her muscles. Feeling the eyes of the audiance she takes a gentle bow to the front row lifting her head to the back row as she nods deeply. Lifting her strance she straightens her back with grace. Blinking evenly and flattens her tongue against her mouth clearing her throat.
Jennidia; reaches inside her peti coat pulling out a scroll as she steps up to the podium that is elagantly placed right in the middle of the stage. Taking in a deep breath she smoothes out the pages. Pasturing herself she reads. Lifting her voice to the crowd she narrates her events of this dear woman's life.*
~As the angel swirls in the array of man, and beast. She finds a burden befall her. She begins to notice changes in her schedule. The voices of man begin to fade. Her heart begins to beat gently as though in a sense of pride. No emmense flutter to meet the next being in need for help or guidance. For once her mind was clear. No cries for help. No screams, no prayers. Pure...silence. She flutters down an takes a seat upon a toad stole. Pondering her feelings of light heartedness. Never has she felt so at ease. So embraced by peace.
Her days as an angel has been of fear, and work. Constantly in need, and rushing to mans side with great care and concern. Today nothing called to her, but the sound of her own beating heart.
She flexed her wings looking up at them in great wonder. What a burden it must be to wrap the worlds fears inside such a brillant light.
*Jennidia wraps her wings around her. Embracing herself, feeling the feathers brush her skin*
As she breathed in the scent of her own lifeforce she glowed for the first time. She had brought great light to man. The holyest of all kinds. But this was a new light. One that she had yet felt. It wraped her and called to her gently. It had a song all its own. Lifting her wings she takes to the skies. Rising higher and higher. Not to reach the clouds of heaven but to touch the stars. To shine next to them. She went here to find answers. Ones in which would soon be given to her.
Hoovering over the land of man she peered down through the night sky. Hearing...nothing...Nothing touched her mind. Nothing called out in pain. Such a feeling of peace. She stretched out her arms and prayed. Prayed deeply for an answer as to why.
A single voice spoke. Gently, and soothing. "Sidhe"....
She opened her eyes to find the voice. The single voice that pierced the silence in her mind. She wirled around. Desperate to find answer. She called out "Sidhe? WHAT? What is that?" she spoke out demanding an answer.
The wind rouse up around her. Hugging her gently like a night summer breeze. "Sidhe...." it spoke gently again. Faint yet loving. Like a mother whispering to a child.
She looked up into the night sky, and out from behind a darkned cloud the moon formed. As though coming from a distant land. She stared in wonder at the beauty before her. She moved without thought. She removed her robes letting them fall to the land below.
Skyclad* she opened her arms to the great moon. Calling out like a woman seeking answers. "What do you ask of me?" The warm wind graced her naked flesh caressing gently, again it spoke "Sidhe". Hearing the words roll over her mind she spoke it out loud, "Sidhe".
"Sidhe...."
Opening her wings crossing her legs opening her arms. She lets the word fill her. Leaning back she falls to the sound in her mind. The light that was forming gently began to build around her. Wrapping and circling. Her mind was filling with so much. The smell of grass filling her nose, the taste of water rushing over her tongue, the warmth of fire building inside her heart. The grace of wind wrapping around her body in loving arms. Her soul building in ways she had never felt.
She stretched her wings furthur bearing all she is. An array of light shot through her body wrapping her wings, her legs, her chest, her head, her eyes, her mind. So much she could barely see the moon over such brillance.
A moment later she felt her body being lowered to the ground. As she touched the soft earth below she feel gently asleep. Exhausted from the overwelming feelings rushing through her.
She awoke to the sound of birds chirping, and water rushing past. Waking up she peered at a babbling brook that was just a stone throws away. She sat up realizing she was still skyclad she wrapped her arms around her frame. Looking around she felt her hair fall over her flesh.
It sent sensations through her body that made her shiver. She gasped out loud from the caress. She flexed her muscles and stood letting her body wake fully. She stretched reaching out and feeling the warmth of the morning sun roll over her skin. She sighed gently smiling to herself. She began to hear a new sound. She could hear the very essance of her heart beating. She stood in awe listening to the sound. Then other things began to fill her mind. The sound of the bird, the water, the crunch of the earth beneath her toes. She opened her arms and began to do something she had NEVER done on land. She danced....
Slowly at first but more as she heard the sounds of the Goddess fill her body. She moved faster. Faster..until it filled her mind...her body, her soul, her heart. As she moved she felt a sensation she had never felt before. She was lighter then usual. She looked back and her eyes grew wider. Her wings....her once long featherly wings were now bare. They were clear as ice, and sheer as hair. She fluttered then gently looking in awe as she moved to the wind.
The sun captured her wings and she gasped in awe as the sun pierced straight through casting a prism of wonderous colors before her. Such pure beauty....
She opened her mouth and spoke softly more as to herself.
"Sidhe...."
A faint smile covered her face as she wrapped her arms around her giggling for the first time EVER. She moved towards the brook and yet again began to dance to the wonders of nature.
*Skyclad; meaning nude
Jennidia; reaches inside her peti coat pulling out a scroll as she steps up to the podium that is elagantly placed right in the middle of the stage. Taking in a deep breath she smoothes out the pages. Pasturing herself she reads. Lifting her voice to the crowd she narrates her events of this dear woman's life.*
~As the angel swirls in the array of man, and beast. She finds a burden befall her. She begins to notice changes in her schedule. The voices of man begin to fade. Her heart begins to beat gently as though in a sense of pride. No emmense flutter to meet the next being in need for help or guidance. For once her mind was clear. No cries for help. No screams, no prayers. Pure...silence. She flutters down an takes a seat upon a toad stole. Pondering her feelings of light heartedness. Never has she felt so at ease. So embraced by peace.
Her days as an angel has been of fear, and work. Constantly in need, and rushing to mans side with great care and concern. Today nothing called to her, but the sound of her own beating heart.
She flexed her wings looking up at them in great wonder. What a burden it must be to wrap the worlds fears inside such a brillant light.
*Jennidia wraps her wings around her. Embracing herself, feeling the feathers brush her skin*
As she breathed in the scent of her own lifeforce she glowed for the first time. She had brought great light to man. The holyest of all kinds. But this was a new light. One that she had yet felt. It wraped her and called to her gently. It had a song all its own. Lifting her wings she takes to the skies. Rising higher and higher. Not to reach the clouds of heaven but to touch the stars. To shine next to them. She went here to find answers. Ones in which would soon be given to her.
Hoovering over the land of man she peered down through the night sky. Hearing...nothing...Nothing touched her mind. Nothing called out in pain. Such a feeling of peace. She stretched out her arms and prayed. Prayed deeply for an answer as to why.
A single voice spoke. Gently, and soothing. "Sidhe"....
She opened her eyes to find the voice. The single voice that pierced the silence in her mind. She wirled around. Desperate to find answer. She called out "Sidhe? WHAT? What is that?" she spoke out demanding an answer.
The wind rouse up around her. Hugging her gently like a night summer breeze. "Sidhe...." it spoke gently again. Faint yet loving. Like a mother whispering to a child.
She looked up into the night sky, and out from behind a darkned cloud the moon formed. As though coming from a distant land. She stared in wonder at the beauty before her. She moved without thought. She removed her robes letting them fall to the land below.
Skyclad* she opened her arms to the great moon. Calling out like a woman seeking answers. "What do you ask of me?" The warm wind graced her naked flesh caressing gently, again it spoke "Sidhe". Hearing the words roll over her mind she spoke it out loud, "Sidhe".
"Sidhe...."
Opening her wings crossing her legs opening her arms. She lets the word fill her. Leaning back she falls to the sound in her mind. The light that was forming gently began to build around her. Wrapping and circling. Her mind was filling with so much. The smell of grass filling her nose, the taste of water rushing over her tongue, the warmth of fire building inside her heart. The grace of wind wrapping around her body in loving arms. Her soul building in ways she had never felt.
She stretched her wings furthur bearing all she is. An array of light shot through her body wrapping her wings, her legs, her chest, her head, her eyes, her mind. So much she could barely see the moon over such brillance.
A moment later she felt her body being lowered to the ground. As she touched the soft earth below she feel gently asleep. Exhausted from the overwelming feelings rushing through her.
She awoke to the sound of birds chirping, and water rushing past. Waking up she peered at a babbling brook that was just a stone throws away. She sat up realizing she was still skyclad she wrapped her arms around her frame. Looking around she felt her hair fall over her flesh.
It sent sensations through her body that made her shiver. She gasped out loud from the caress. She flexed her muscles and stood letting her body wake fully. She stretched reaching out and feeling the warmth of the morning sun roll over her skin. She sighed gently smiling to herself. She began to hear a new sound. She could hear the very essance of her heart beating. She stood in awe listening to the sound. Then other things began to fill her mind. The sound of the bird, the water, the crunch of the earth beneath her toes. She opened her arms and began to do something she had NEVER done on land. She danced....
Slowly at first but more as she heard the sounds of the Goddess fill her body. She moved faster. Faster..until it filled her mind...her body, her soul, her heart. As she moved she felt a sensation she had never felt before. She was lighter then usual. She looked back and her eyes grew wider. Her wings....her once long featherly wings were now bare. They were clear as ice, and sheer as hair. She fluttered then gently looking in awe as she moved to the wind.
The sun captured her wings and she gasped in awe as the sun pierced straight through casting a prism of wonderous colors before her. Such pure beauty....
She opened her mouth and spoke softly more as to herself.
"Sidhe...."
A faint smile covered her face as she wrapped her arms around her giggling for the first time EVER. She moved towards the brook and yet again began to dance to the wonders of nature.
*Skyclad; meaning nude
Saturday, August 2, 2008
Into the Sun
Jennidia has been working and watching over man, but as she watches over them they wonder off into areas that she tries not to venture into. A new land has been formed in Aglarond. Is it called Argoth. The land of Darkness. The pit of hell is in the bowls of this forsaken land. The ruler of this abyss of darkness is "Damian Darkheart". He is a Dark Mage. He also formed the teaching of the Dark Mages. Jennidia being known as a "retired" Mage. She still feel the sting of magick running through her. As she reads and continues to learn of this "Argoth" she is given word that her husband is working on something. He sends scrolls out every day to various people. She never likes to bother him when he is in one of his rants for she knows that if he is upset in the worst forms of manors that he will not leave his rage. Something about Fae's. When they want to do something. It will get done at all cost. So she learned to stay out of his "Warpaths"
Reading on her council scrolls and thinking on what to do for the people of Aglarond confused and watching the clouds form in Argoth, she listens to her husband wonder around aimlessly muttering to himself. Watching him stop occasionally to jostle something down then to pace again. The loft upstairs was turned in to a thinking room since Creag decided that he has some changes he wished to present to the Simbul of Aglarond. There is much that he has in mind, but Jennidia herself is trying to keep her mind busy from the screams she now hears in Aglarond.
She left Creag to his rambling and went to visit Argot to provoke peace among the King, and as he was about to speak with her something set him off, and he called out for her demise. She fleeted for her life but felt more distraught then ever. "How to save mankind with this darkness" she taught as she rose to the heavens. Finding a demon was still hot on her feet she landed on Aglarond soil. He call out for peace as she agreed to meet with him. She noticed something strange as he approached her. He looked familiar under the cloak of darkness he wore. He moved his hood back and smiled through a darkened face. Yet his frame was still there. It was Vondred. He had been gone from Aglarond for a long time, and she had not thought to ask of his disappearance, for many people of Aglarond have been missing.
He spoke to her of a treaty that he wished to forge with Aglarond. A peace of neutrality between the Angels, and the Demons. She listened as he asked for the blood of an Angel. Horror filled her face as a long time friend of hers asked her for blood of a divine being. A being of light. He told her how this angel called himself the "Fist of God" she listened in disgust as Vondred told her that this was a "Fallen" Angel and covers himself in robes to hide among the divine. She screamed for him to stop but his voice only grew stronger. He spoke of how he was killed. Sent to an abyss of darkness to find himself. She listened, and was confused but listened.
She called him a false friend, and a demon speaking of darkness to fill her heart of her brothern. He kept on talking as if her words were dust. He spoke of a breed of a new demon arising. Stronger, faster without words or remorse rising. An angel of Death being born, and the death of her brothern would stop this. He pleaded with her to bring this angel to him so that he can be cast into the void. She refused, confused and hurt. Never had she taught that Vondred of all beings would ask such a thing of her. He finally lost his nerve with her and screamed out. "LOOK AT ME! THIS IS WHAT HE DID TO ME! LOOK AT YOUR ANGELS WORK! HE BETRAYED ME, YOU. LOOK!" He turned pulled back his cloak as a darkness filled her vision of a massive form of wings pulled from his flesh. He took to the air, and from sight.
She slowly flew home. She walked through the door and went straight to bed. To much for her Angelic mind to gather at the moment.
Reading on her council scrolls and thinking on what to do for the people of Aglarond confused and watching the clouds form in Argoth, she listens to her husband wonder around aimlessly muttering to himself. Watching him stop occasionally to jostle something down then to pace again. The loft upstairs was turned in to a thinking room since Creag decided that he has some changes he wished to present to the Simbul of Aglarond. There is much that he has in mind, but Jennidia herself is trying to keep her mind busy from the screams she now hears in Aglarond.
She left Creag to his rambling and went to visit Argot to provoke peace among the King, and as he was about to speak with her something set him off, and he called out for her demise. She fleeted for her life but felt more distraught then ever. "How to save mankind with this darkness" she taught as she rose to the heavens. Finding a demon was still hot on her feet she landed on Aglarond soil. He call out for peace as she agreed to meet with him. She noticed something strange as he approached her. He looked familiar under the cloak of darkness he wore. He moved his hood back and smiled through a darkened face. Yet his frame was still there. It was Vondred. He had been gone from Aglarond for a long time, and she had not thought to ask of his disappearance, for many people of Aglarond have been missing.
He spoke to her of a treaty that he wished to forge with Aglarond. A peace of neutrality between the Angels, and the Demons. She listened as he asked for the blood of an Angel. Horror filled her face as a long time friend of hers asked her for blood of a divine being. A being of light. He told her how this angel called himself the "Fist of God" she listened in disgust as Vondred told her that this was a "Fallen" Angel and covers himself in robes to hide among the divine. She screamed for him to stop but his voice only grew stronger. He spoke of how he was killed. Sent to an abyss of darkness to find himself. She listened, and was confused but listened.
She called him a false friend, and a demon speaking of darkness to fill her heart of her brothern. He kept on talking as if her words were dust. He spoke of a breed of a new demon arising. Stronger, faster without words or remorse rising. An angel of Death being born, and the death of her brothern would stop this. He pleaded with her to bring this angel to him so that he can be cast into the void. She refused, confused and hurt. Never had she taught that Vondred of all beings would ask such a thing of her. He finally lost his nerve with her and screamed out. "LOOK AT ME! THIS IS WHAT HE DID TO ME! LOOK AT YOUR ANGELS WORK! HE BETRAYED ME, YOU. LOOK!" He turned pulled back his cloak as a darkness filled her vision of a massive form of wings pulled from his flesh. He took to the air, and from sight.
She slowly flew home. She walked through the door and went straight to bed. To much for her Angelic mind to gather at the moment.
You? The Messiah..Really??
(I am not going to say who this is dedicated too. I am just going to see how long it takes him to realize.)
All my devotion betrayed
I am no longer afraid
I was too blinded to see
How much you've stolen from me
You want to know why I feel so horrified?
I've let my innocence die
You want to know why I can't be pacified?
You made me bury something
I won't be sleeping tonight
I only wanted a blessing made
Now I've been labeled a renegade
It seems so clear now what I must do
You're no immortal
I won't let them
Deify you
They view you as the new messiah
Deify you
Renew belief in some demented man
You want to know why it seems the passion's died?
We've all been living this lie
You want to know why my will's been fortified?
You've made me hunger again
Good luck sleeping tonight
I only wanted a blessing made
Now I've been labeled a renegade
It seems so clear now what I must do
You're no immortal
I won't let them
Deify you
They view you as the new messiah
Deify you
Renew belief in some demented man
All my devotion betrayed
I am no longer afraid
I was too blinded to see
How much you've stolen from me
Deify you
They view you as the new messiah
Deify you
Renew belief in some demented man
All my devotion betrayed
I am no longer afraid
I was too blinded to see
How much you've stolen from me
You want to know why I feel so horrified?
I've let my innocence die
You want to know why I can't be pacified?
You made me bury something
I won't be sleeping tonight
I only wanted a blessing made
Now I've been labeled a renegade
It seems so clear now what I must do
You're no immortal
I won't let them
Deify you
They view you as the new messiah
Deify you
Renew belief in some demented man
You want to know why it seems the passion's died?
We've all been living this lie
You want to know why my will's been fortified?
You've made me hunger again
Good luck sleeping tonight
I only wanted a blessing made
Now I've been labeled a renegade
It seems so clear now what I must do
You're no immortal
I won't let them
Deify you
They view you as the new messiah
Deify you
Renew belief in some demented man
All my devotion betrayed
I am no longer afraid
I was too blinded to see
How much you've stolen from me
Deify you
They view you as the new messiah
Deify you
Renew belief in some demented man
Sunday, July 27, 2008
This looks bad...but. I can explain...I think...
You Are Destined to Rule the World |
 You have the makings of a very evil dictator... Which is both kind of cool and kind of scary! Will you rule the world? Maybe. Maybe not. But at least you know that you could. |
(um...no explanation I am afraid)
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Lucifer's Angel
Behind those eyes lies the truth
and grief
Behind those beautiful smiles
I've seen tragedy
The flawless skin hides
the secrets within
The silent forces that secretly ignite
your sins
Fly away
fly away
From the torch of blame
They hunt you-the Lucifer's Angel
Never lived
you never died
Your life has been denied
They call you
Lucifer's Angel
Beyond these clouds you can
hide all your tears
Beyond this world you'll be safe
from their wicked fears
And in their hearts they fear
your demands
You know their minds
won't accept you, they'll never
understand
Fly away
fly away
From the torch of blame
They hunt you
Lucifer's Angels
You never lived
you never died
Your life has been denied
They call you
Lucifer's Angel
On your own
I know you can make it
truth or bone
I know you can shake it
Survive alone
I know you can take it
ohhhohhhohhh
Fly away
Fly away
From the torch of blame
They hunt you-the Lucifer's Angel
You never lived, you never died
Your life has been denied
They call you
Lucifer's Angel
Fly away
Fly away
Run away
Run away
Hide away
Hide away-Lucifer's Angel
Fly away
Fly away
Run away
Run away
Hide away
Hide away-Lucifer's Angel
Fly away
Fly away
Run away
Run away
Hide away
Hide away-Lucifer's Angel
and grief
Behind those beautiful smiles
I've seen tragedy
The flawless skin hides
the secrets within
The silent forces that secretly ignite
your sins
Fly away
fly away
From the torch of blame
They hunt you-the Lucifer's Angel
Never lived
you never died
Your life has been denied
They call you
Lucifer's Angel
Beyond these clouds you can
hide all your tears
Beyond this world you'll be safe
from their wicked fears
And in their hearts they fear
your demands
You know their minds
won't accept you, they'll never
understand
Fly away
fly away
From the torch of blame
They hunt you
Lucifer's Angels
You never lived
you never died
Your life has been denied
They call you
Lucifer's Angel
On your own
I know you can make it
truth or bone
I know you can shake it
Survive alone
I know you can take it
ohhhohhhohhh
Fly away
Fly away
From the torch of blame
They hunt you-the Lucifer's Angel
You never lived, you never died
Your life has been denied
They call you
Lucifer's Angel
Fly away
Fly away
Run away
Run away
Hide away
Hide away-Lucifer's Angel
Fly away
Fly away
Run away
Run away
Hide away
Hide away-Lucifer's Angel
Fly away
Fly away
Run away
Run away
Hide away
Hide away-Lucifer's Angel
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Dead or not to be Dead?
Well this is an interesting array of wonder. I am dead. Yep one dead Angel. Meduzza killed me with a fire ball, but how do you ask did a fire ball kill and imortal being. Well lets look at that. Before Creag and I were married he was very angry with me for being betrothed to a man called Talisen. Who is long gone now. After he found out that I was pregnant with Creag's child. Well before Creag knew I was pregnant all he knew was that I was going to marry in his absense. So he went to his uncle and asked for a dagger. A dagger that can kill imortal beings. Creag was going to use it on himself, but he was so full of rage he went after me. Someone warned me of his coming and I stood waiting for him staff in hand. Ready for him to "Try" and take my life. He tried, but something flashed in his eyes and he flew off. I think his pain finally got the best of him. So off he went with me screaming for him to finish the job. Calling him all forms of mentionable names. I guess you could say it was out first "fight". So I locked myself aways hoping that he would not return for his safty. But after all was said and done we finally married and he placed the dagger away. Well what he had neglacted to remember was that his uncle was waiting paitiently for a "soul" in payment for this blade.
So once his uncle heard that Creag and I finally settled down. His uncle was enraged and asked for my angelic light. Creag was distraught and did not know what to do. Nothing was going to escape his uncle. So he did what he knew what to do. He placed my soul in a jar, and sent my body to his uncle. Well as time went on Creag became lonely and release my spirit from the jar. He chained me to him to make sure that I would not wonder off and become weakend. Being away from a body weakens the soul. So he kept me close. My only son was not even able to see me, and would slip into a quiet slumber as I grew near him. I watched quietly over my friends and family as nothing much more then a wisp.
Oneday I heard a scream. My son calling out in the night. I slipped from Creags binding quietly as I went to my son's crys. My son was being drug off by a demon named Meduzza. I quietly followed mustering all the strength I could. But I was still very weak from being near Creag, and not really getting out. She drug him into a hidden passage way. I prayed out that someone would hear his cries and quietly followed in the night. Watching and becoming angrier that no one came. Not even my husband knew of his capture. Finally I lost it. I screamed out in the darkness as the Demon untied him to look at her prize. She didn't know who called out and wandered off for a moment. My son was dazed not sure of the sound and swayed lightly as if he was going to pass out. I screamed out again. This time walking to him. He saw me "DEAR GODS" he saw me. I screams and screamed telling him to run, but he just stood there looking at me. WHY DIDN'T HE RUN! I was growing furious and finally he woke up. Snapped out of whatever he was seeing. He spoke out "Mommy. Were am I. MOMMY!" I began to cry and I ran to him wrapping my arms around him. Or at least trying to. The Demon bewildered walked in confused and saw me. I covered Evanos and told her to leave. I had forgotten that I was a weakened spirit. I screamed at her to leave. Over and over. But she just stared at me. I let Evanos go and stood between her and myself. I heard a noise outside. Someone was coming. I wasn't sure who. I called out and she realized that she could see and hear me she panicked. She mustered up a quick fire ball, and before I could move I took the full blast. I flew back against Evanos. He collapsed quietly on the ground. Maybe just passed out from frieght and astonishment to see his mother after so long.
I felt him underneight me quiet and small. A small moan escaped me as I looked down on him feeling myself slowly disolving into nothingness. I was so weak that I couldn't move. I felt another blast hit me square in the back and I cried out. Praying that he was not being harmed. All went black. I was gone. I had been fully destroyed beyond all repair. My soul. My very spirit was abliterated. I heard nothing, I saw nothing. I screamed in the nothingness. NOTHING BUT BLACKNESS. Here I sit. Here I wait. I pray someone can bring me back. My body in nothing but darkness in a rotting dungeon, and my soul in a plane I have never been. Not light. Nothing just pure abyss. Angels, Demons, nothing can enter this.
Here I wait. Here I will stay. All I am left with is my thoughts, and quietness. Not sound, not song. NO MUSIC. I am the angel of Music. Gods I am going to loss it. I can't handle so much stillness. No light. Nothing. No touch, no words. I close my eyes. I wrap my arms around nothingness and wait. Silently wait for a gentle hand to pull me out. Out of what I do not know. "DEAR GODS SOMEONE LET ME OUT"
So once his uncle heard that Creag and I finally settled down. His uncle was enraged and asked for my angelic light. Creag was distraught and did not know what to do. Nothing was going to escape his uncle. So he did what he knew what to do. He placed my soul in a jar, and sent my body to his uncle. Well as time went on Creag became lonely and release my spirit from the jar. He chained me to him to make sure that I would not wonder off and become weakend. Being away from a body weakens the soul. So he kept me close. My only son was not even able to see me, and would slip into a quiet slumber as I grew near him. I watched quietly over my friends and family as nothing much more then a wisp.
Oneday I heard a scream. My son calling out in the night. I slipped from Creags binding quietly as I went to my son's crys. My son was being drug off by a demon named Meduzza. I quietly followed mustering all the strength I could. But I was still very weak from being near Creag, and not really getting out. She drug him into a hidden passage way. I prayed out that someone would hear his cries and quietly followed in the night. Watching and becoming angrier that no one came. Not even my husband knew of his capture. Finally I lost it. I screamed out in the darkness as the Demon untied him to look at her prize. She didn't know who called out and wandered off for a moment. My son was dazed not sure of the sound and swayed lightly as if he was going to pass out. I screamed out again. This time walking to him. He saw me "DEAR GODS" he saw me. I screams and screamed telling him to run, but he just stood there looking at me. WHY DIDN'T HE RUN! I was growing furious and finally he woke up. Snapped out of whatever he was seeing. He spoke out "Mommy. Were am I. MOMMY!" I began to cry and I ran to him wrapping my arms around him. Or at least trying to. The Demon bewildered walked in confused and saw me. I covered Evanos and told her to leave. I had forgotten that I was a weakened spirit. I screamed at her to leave. Over and over. But she just stared at me. I let Evanos go and stood between her and myself. I heard a noise outside. Someone was coming. I wasn't sure who. I called out and she realized that she could see and hear me she panicked. She mustered up a quick fire ball, and before I could move I took the full blast. I flew back against Evanos. He collapsed quietly on the ground. Maybe just passed out from frieght and astonishment to see his mother after so long.
I felt him underneight me quiet and small. A small moan escaped me as I looked down on him feeling myself slowly disolving into nothingness. I was so weak that I couldn't move. I felt another blast hit me square in the back and I cried out. Praying that he was not being harmed. All went black. I was gone. I had been fully destroyed beyond all repair. My soul. My very spirit was abliterated. I heard nothing, I saw nothing. I screamed in the nothingness. NOTHING BUT BLACKNESS. Here I sit. Here I wait. I pray someone can bring me back. My body in nothing but darkness in a rotting dungeon, and my soul in a plane I have never been. Not light. Nothing just pure abyss. Angels, Demons, nothing can enter this.
Here I wait. Here I will stay. All I am left with is my thoughts, and quietness. Not sound, not song. NO MUSIC. I am the angel of Music. Gods I am going to loss it. I can't handle so much stillness. No light. Nothing. No touch, no words. I close my eyes. I wrap my arms around nothingness and wait. Silently wait for a gentle hand to pull me out. Out of what I do not know. "DEAR GODS SOMEONE LET ME OUT"
Friday, July 4, 2008
Jennidia and her family
Gwen and her brother.
Jennidia's Brother Cyliss
Hanz
Creag calling his Kingdom
Evanie
Evanos Ethaniel
King Iozz losing his mind after the death and rape of Queen Kitti
Evanos comforting his father
Evanos Vowing to Defend his Family
Creag Changed after Jennidia's Death
Evanos Ethaniel (Teenager)
Jennidia and Queen Kitti
Jennidia
Time to Remember
Creag and Jennidia Marriage
Arvanos Waywreth
Kitti Queen of Gamilia
Creag and Jennidia EmmonsThursday, July 3, 2008
Goo Goo Dolls
Before It's Too Late lyrics
I wonder through fiction to look for the truth
Buried beneath all the lies
and I stood at a distance
To feel who you are
Hiding myself in your eyes
and hold on before it's too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives
and the risk that might break you
Is the one that would save
A life you dont live is still lost
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real til it's gone
Hold on before its too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives
So live like you mean it
Love til you feel it
It's all that we need in our lives
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real til it's gone
Hold on before its too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives
Hold on before its too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives
It's all that we need in our lives
It's all that I need in my life
I wonder through fiction to look for the truth
Buried beneath all the lies
and I stood at a distance
To feel who you are
Hiding myself in your eyes
and hold on before it's too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives
and the risk that might break you
Is the one that would save
A life you dont live is still lost
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real til it's gone
Hold on before its too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives
So live like you mean it
Love til you feel it
It's all that we need in our lives
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real til it's gone
Hold on before its too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives
Hold on before its too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives
It's all that we need in our lives
It's all that I need in my life
Monday, June 30, 2008
Water Sports
Yes I know what that means, and 'NO" it is not intended for that, but I thought that it was a fitting title.
People wanted to know why I "LOVE" water so much, even in SL. Well I took a shower today, and decided to blog it.
Warmth and steam fluid release.
Calming and soothing in many degrees.
Graceful yet strong. With tiresome songs.
Mind is amidst as the world melts away.
Walls open up and the imagination forms.
Letting go of mortal coils and pain of the day before.
Reaching through the clouds of steam and finding
a lightly scented array of soap.
Washing away the stench of cities and dirt of the day.
Waking the mind and rising the flesh.
Hands wander and find tired kinks, massaging away
and release small moans of pain.
The mind drifts and the eyes close.
The the hands roam free.
Finding more places to release the senses.
Slowly. fluidly, sensually, lulling across the vast sea of flesh.
Steam filling the lungs as the face grows flush and body responds.
Leaning slightly to the side.
Mind finds a plane of existence outside this small enclousure.
Wondering through time and space. Hearing the rush of a familiar sound.
Waterfalls and meadows stream in vision as the mind walks and and ponders.
Slowly rising and falling with the rush of sound something brings the mind back.
Snaps it into place.
A pulling of sensation as the hands continue to massage and find places among the flesh.
Quietly interrupting the imagination.
Mind fighting to float to wonder off, but the body refuses to wonder.
It grows close to its center as the mind grows blank.
Small colors form as the body goes ridged.
Steam soothing
Water rushing
Mind is numb climbing through waves of peace and a newed strength
Muscles release and arms outstretched hold in place as the body releases hidden secrets and bonds
Fully grasped inside this world.
Nothing can touch it.
Nothing can find it.
For that moment I am truly at peace.
People wanted to know why I "LOVE" water so much, even in SL. Well I took a shower today, and decided to blog it.
Warmth and steam fluid release.
Calming and soothing in many degrees.
Graceful yet strong. With tiresome songs.
Mind is amidst as the world melts away.
Walls open up and the imagination forms.
Letting go of mortal coils and pain of the day before.
Reaching through the clouds of steam and finding
a lightly scented array of soap.
Washing away the stench of cities and dirt of the day.
Waking the mind and rising the flesh.
Hands wander and find tired kinks, massaging away
and release small moans of pain.
The mind drifts and the eyes close.
The the hands roam free.
Finding more places to release the senses.
Slowly. fluidly, sensually, lulling across the vast sea of flesh.
Steam filling the lungs as the face grows flush and body responds.
Leaning slightly to the side.
Mind finds a plane of existence outside this small enclousure.
Wondering through time and space. Hearing the rush of a familiar sound.
Waterfalls and meadows stream in vision as the mind walks and and ponders.
Slowly rising and falling with the rush of sound something brings the mind back.
Snaps it into place.
A pulling of sensation as the hands continue to massage and find places among the flesh.
Quietly interrupting the imagination.
Mind fighting to float to wonder off, but the body refuses to wonder.
It grows close to its center as the mind grows blank.
Small colors form as the body goes ridged.
Steam soothing
Water rushing
Mind is numb climbing through waves of peace and a newed strength
Muscles release and arms outstretched hold in place as the body releases hidden secrets and bonds
Fully grasped inside this world.
Nothing can touch it.
Nothing can find it.
For that moment I am truly at peace.
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Falling under and sinking
I don't know if anyone in SL goes through this, but I have been undergoing some interesting feelings in SL lately. There is something that I have the ability to do, and that is search and monitor aura, and energy. I can see it in RL, and feel it's connective energy like a surge. I have meet a few people that were able to give you some high amount, but one always called out. When I meet Creag I felt a surge that went straight to the core. Like a graceful S.O.S. It was quiet refreshing. Yet I pulled from it. So as I moved on apparently so did Creag. We eventually found each other again.
It was like no matter how hard I pulled the more he reached out engulfing me. It was becoming quiet irresistible. So I was pulled in like a moth to flame, but with every great love story there is a dark side to all things. My mother (Lilith) had other plans for me. When I was born she betrothed me to my brother. Don't ask, my mother did not believe in outside afars. But with the strength of my father (Camael) I trudged on. Resisting her will. I hid in Heaven. Till it was my time to go and help mankind. But before that day came I made a soul. Which is the job of angels. I guess you can say we have to earn our keep. (Smiles)
So I wanted to create something in my likeness. I never created another for I put so much effort into this soul that I never wanted to lose myself like that again. So I created a Fae. A true being of light and dark. Neutral yet because of my mother being darkness I placed my darkest forms of energy inside this being. Which made him unseelie. (sighs) I guess a way to release the negativity in my heart so that I could be truly free. As I released this soul unto the earth I was at peace for a short time. Till it was my time to depart. I ascended to earth and found my brother waiting.
For quiet some time he tried to persuade me of my mother's will. Each time I turned away. Each time he came back. Stronger more persistent. As I grew from him. I learned many trials, and turns of the hate and darkness that was man. But I also noticed the more man turned from me, the more I pushed back. The day my husband asked to marry me. I sent a letter to my brother asking him to come. He had not talked to me in a long time, so I had thought that he had let the things of the past move on. Not only did he not speak with me but he even married. So I was sure that he would never pursue me again. But he never responded to my invitation. So I was married and living a very fruitful life. Yet something set me off. Something came to me with such force that not even the love of my husband could stop it. My mother had found a way to posses me. Finding ways to feed on man and leaving me to wake in fields and even strange dark caves. Finally she drew the last straw. She attacked my husband.
He did what any Fae would do. Lock away all the darkness and hold the key. He took out my soul to make sure that I would not lose the best part of myself, and placed it next to his throne. As time grew his uncle found out of this, and sent for my essence. But Creag would not have it. So he sent my body knowing that his uncle would not harm what he thought was the vessel to a Heavenly light. Purest of all power.
Well I was tired wandering around as a soul so I decided to visit my brother. GODS how I regret it. He told me about how I dishonored the family and how he is about to take over all in his path. How he will collar me, and make me his. Well I warned my husband of such events, and well let me just say we have one very pissed of Fae King. Well my brother threatens to kill my husband and my husband is ready to mount his head on a pike. Well we will see how things go. I think I am going to keep my angelic butt home though. It seems that things are going to be dark, but I will not confront such a task yet. I trust my husbands judgment and I leave it in his capable hands.
It was like no matter how hard I pulled the more he reached out engulfing me. It was becoming quiet irresistible. So I was pulled in like a moth to flame, but with every great love story there is a dark side to all things. My mother (Lilith) had other plans for me. When I was born she betrothed me to my brother. Don't ask, my mother did not believe in outside afars. But with the strength of my father (Camael) I trudged on. Resisting her will. I hid in Heaven. Till it was my time to go and help mankind. But before that day came I made a soul. Which is the job of angels. I guess you can say we have to earn our keep. (Smiles)
So I wanted to create something in my likeness. I never created another for I put so much effort into this soul that I never wanted to lose myself like that again. So I created a Fae. A true being of light and dark. Neutral yet because of my mother being darkness I placed my darkest forms of energy inside this being. Which made him unseelie. (sighs) I guess a way to release the negativity in my heart so that I could be truly free. As I released this soul unto the earth I was at peace for a short time. Till it was my time to depart. I ascended to earth and found my brother waiting.
For quiet some time he tried to persuade me of my mother's will. Each time I turned away. Each time he came back. Stronger more persistent. As I grew from him. I learned many trials, and turns of the hate and darkness that was man. But I also noticed the more man turned from me, the more I pushed back. The day my husband asked to marry me. I sent a letter to my brother asking him to come. He had not talked to me in a long time, so I had thought that he had let the things of the past move on. Not only did he not speak with me but he even married. So I was sure that he would never pursue me again. But he never responded to my invitation. So I was married and living a very fruitful life. Yet something set me off. Something came to me with such force that not even the love of my husband could stop it. My mother had found a way to posses me. Finding ways to feed on man and leaving me to wake in fields and even strange dark caves. Finally she drew the last straw. She attacked my husband.
He did what any Fae would do. Lock away all the darkness and hold the key. He took out my soul to make sure that I would not lose the best part of myself, and placed it next to his throne. As time grew his uncle found out of this, and sent for my essence. But Creag would not have it. So he sent my body knowing that his uncle would not harm what he thought was the vessel to a Heavenly light. Purest of all power.
Well I was tired wandering around as a soul so I decided to visit my brother. GODS how I regret it. He told me about how I dishonored the family and how he is about to take over all in his path. How he will collar me, and make me his. Well I warned my husband of such events, and well let me just say we have one very pissed of Fae King. Well my brother threatens to kill my husband and my husband is ready to mount his head on a pike. Well we will see how things go. I think I am going to keep my angelic butt home though. It seems that things are going to be dark, but I will not confront such a task yet. I trust my husbands judgment and I leave it in his capable hands.
Took Again...
I took the test again, this time slower to make sure all was correct. So here it is. (smiles)
You are The Star
Hope, expectation, Bright promises.
The Star is one of the great cards of faith, dreams realised
The Star is a card that looks to the future. It does not predict any immediate or powerful change, but it does predict hope and healing. This card suggests clarity of vision, spiritual insight. And, most importantly, that unexpected help will be coming, with water to quench your thirst, with a guiding light to the future. They might say you're a dreamer, but you're not the only one.
Hope, expectation, Bright promises.
The Star is one of the great cards of faith, dreams realised
The Star is a card that looks to the future. It does not predict any immediate or powerful change, but it does predict hope and healing. This card suggests clarity of vision, spiritual insight. And, most importantly, that unexpected help will be coming, with water to quench your thirst, with a guiding light to the future. They might say you're a dreamer, but you're not the only one.
Saturday, June 28, 2008
My beautiful Boy
My kid dedicated this to me. I cried my little eyes out.
Flyleaf "Broken Wings"
Thank you for being such a friend to me
Oh I pray a friend for life,
And have I ever told you how much you mean to me?
Oh you're everything to me
Thinking all the time how to tell you what I feel,
Contemplating phrases....I'm gazing at eternity,
I am floating in serenity...
And I am so lost for words
And I am so overwhelmed
Please don't leave just yet
Can you stay a moment please
We can dance together
We can dance forever
Under your stars tonight
We'll live and breathe this dream
So close your eyes, but don't dream too deep
And please pass me some memories
And when I fall you're underneath
1000 broken hearts, carried by 1000 broken wings
(I dedicated this back to everyone that was ever there for me in the time of need)
Flyleaf "There for you"
Sometimes I'm a selfish fake
You're always a true friend
I don't deserve you
'Cause I'm not there for you
Please forgive me again
I wanna be there for you
Someone you can come to
Runs deeper than my bones
I wanna be there for you
I wanna be there for you
Swirling shades of blue
Slow dancing in your eyes
Sun kisses the earth
And I hush my urge to cry
I wanna be there for you
Someone you can come to
Runs deeper than my bones
I wanna be there for you
I wanna be there for you
'Cause I hear the whispered words
In your masterpiece beautiful
You speak the unspeakable through
I love you too
I wanna be there for you
Someone you can come to
I wanna be there for you
And be someone you can come to
The love runs deeper than my bones
I wanna be there for you
Flyleaf "Broken Wings"
Thank you for being such a friend to me
Oh I pray a friend for life,
And have I ever told you how much you mean to me?
Oh you're everything to me
Thinking all the time how to tell you what I feel,
Contemplating phrases....I'm gazing at eternity,
I am floating in serenity...
And I am so lost for words
And I am so overwhelmed
Please don't leave just yet
Can you stay a moment please
We can dance together
We can dance forever
Under your stars tonight
We'll live and breathe this dream
So close your eyes, but don't dream too deep
And please pass me some memories
And when I fall you're underneath
1000 broken hearts, carried by 1000 broken wings
(I dedicated this back to everyone that was ever there for me in the time of need)
Flyleaf "There for you"
Sometimes I'm a selfish fake
You're always a true friend
I don't deserve you
'Cause I'm not there for you
Please forgive me again
I wanna be there for you
Someone you can come to
Runs deeper than my bones
I wanna be there for you
I wanna be there for you
Swirling shades of blue
Slow dancing in your eyes
Sun kisses the earth
And I hush my urge to cry
I wanna be there for you
Someone you can come to
Runs deeper than my bones
I wanna be there for you
I wanna be there for you
'Cause I hear the whispered words
In your masterpiece beautiful
You speak the unspeakable through
I love you too
I wanna be there for you
Someone you can come to
I wanna be there for you
And be someone you can come to
The love runs deeper than my bones
I wanna be there for you
How interesting
You are The Star
Hope, expectation, Bright promises.
The Star is one of the great cards of faith, dreams realised
The Star is a card that looks to the future. It does not predict any immediate or powerful change, but it does predict hope and healing. This card suggests clarity of vision, spiritual insight. And, most importantly, that unexpected help will be coming, with water to quench your thirst, with a guiding light to the future. They might say you're a dreamer, but you're not the only one.Friday, June 27, 2008
What is a picture truly Worth?
I was just thinking about this earlier. What is a picture truly worth. Is is the person inside the picture? Or the care of the photographer? Who knows. All I know is that I was looking at this picture today, and something just struck me. I really like this picture. Not because I am riddled in tattoos, or that I am looking a certain way. But what it means. How I feel when I look through the eyes of the person that took it, and saw something there that I had forgotten so many years ago.I am writting a book on this character, yet I can't help but get sucked in. Every part of me wants to move on an cause turmoil in this girls path, yet another part of me wants to just relax, and enjoy that perfect life this angel has been lucky to get.
I will admit her life is far from perfect but her events are quiet gracious. She has much to be proud of. No I do not talk of Algarond, or Gamilia, or even her titles. Her family. That is what I seek to adjust my angelic light upon. The ones that pray, and honor her with great strides. The ones that even out of SL stop and think of her as though she is apart of them. The ones that have taken the time to see threw thoughs eyes.
I think I am the only angel with Green eyes. How ironic. I guess that is something about me in RL that I can never hide even in SL. It is apart of me as clear as water, and as strong as the summer breeze. So much can be seen in my eyes. So much I wish to share with the world. Yet I find each and everyday I too discover much of myself.
I have found that I am not a strong writer, but I love it. So I will continue to do so. Even if I don't have any readers. I know of a few people that see me for who I truly am, and they are all that I need in my life. I care strongly for my family. I pray they know I am always there watching and smiling down on them. For even know all I have is right here. Yesterday is History. Tomorrow is a mystery, but now is FOREVER!
So when you look at someone and smiles, and you tell them that you will love them forever. You are right. For NOW, right NOW! You are true to your heart, for there is not other day. No other light, no other form of place. I only pray that each memory I submit I will get to re live, reform, reknow. Because there is nothing like the feeling of being apart of something.
I have great pride, and I find that even in my weakest moments I will always shine. Because I have made from the smallest grain of sand. Yet when I was born lightening struck it. What happens when you heat up sand? It forms glass. Crystal clear prisoms of color shining like a thousand rainbows. That is what my heart is. Brillance in greatness. Going every which way. But someone found it, and before they asked for anything they offered a gift. A great gift. A piece of themselves. Before they ever even asked me for a taste of what I had to offer in return. To me that is true and unending faith in the human heart. For our soul is the greatest gift of all.
I will cherish such a gift til the end of my being, and even then I will rise again, like the pheonix. Yet I feel that at the end of this journey I will be at peace. True summerland of hope. I will rest soon, and until then I ride the waves of force, and watch for the outcome. I just pray I can take as many with me on this ride. So that they too can know the unblinding faith I speak of.
May Diane bless this eve.
Love,
Jennidia
A day of pure light
Well as I never thought that things could get any worse. For some reason the electric company rejected my check. So yikes. OUT OF INTERNET and MY DAMN LAB TOP craped on me. So I have officially moved back in with my mother. GODS. I haven't lived here since I was 17. WOW years and years ago. My son is laying down for a nap with my mom so I have some time to relax and visit my hubby. GODS I MISS HIM! Creag is the only thing in my life keeping me sane right now.
I was walking last night, and you will not believe this. But I looked up and I had wondered into this park called Creag's Park. I was like GODS I am losing it. So I wondered through and planted around this beautiful lake in the middle was some gorgeous purple Iris's. I mean how ironic is that. I don't know if it is healthy to think of someone so much. But damn it. It makes me happy so you can kiss my shinny butt. (smiles).
Well I wish you all the best, and keep praying, for I am getting some were soon. I hold you all in my heart. Thank you again for everything.
Love,
Jennidia
I was walking last night, and you will not believe this. But I looked up and I had wondered into this park called Creag's Park. I was like GODS I am losing it. So I wondered through and planted around this beautiful lake in the middle was some gorgeous purple Iris's. I mean how ironic is that. I don't know if it is healthy to think of someone so much. But damn it. It makes me happy so you can kiss my shinny butt. (smiles).
Well I wish you all the best, and keep praying, for I am getting some were soon. I hold you all in my heart. Thank you again for everything.
Love,
Jennidia
Saturday, June 21, 2008
YAY
I lost my labtop or a while. But I worked on it, and well here it is. Up and running. Passwords open, and working. SO YAY! I get to write a blog. So well this is just an update, but man did I miss my labtop.
Hugs,
Jennidia
Hugs,
Jennidia
Thursday, June 12, 2008
Memories
Monday, June 9, 2008
Face Behind The Mask
Funny how you look at yourself and see so much, but you look into your soul, and are dumb founded. Like a wave of endless emotions. We all put on a mask to hid the array of emotion emitting from ourselves. But sometimes what we don't realize is that mask is more apart of who we really are then the face itself. Imagine that for a minute, and truly think.If you could touch that part of who you created would you not feel truly whole. Like a missing part. Well I have found that part of myself. Deep inside I know it is there, and I intend to wear that mask with the greatest of smiles. For I know even though I hide the flesh the soul still shines.
Friday, June 6, 2008
Fire and Oil
The day before her wedding her nerves get the best of her. Her Arch Oracle sends for her as he begins to finish the arrangements. Still not have spoken to her betrothed. She is worried. She does not know if he will marry her, and nor does he know that the Simbul has forbid her to wed. She speaks to the Arch Oracle of her meeting with the Simbul, and how she must wait. He nods and agrees that the Queen was right. She gives him a quick hug as she decides to wonder through the garden. As she does her betrothed steppes out of the woods to greet her with a prolonged sigh. Not sure of his stance she stands there watching patiently. He knows her pain, and speaks gently not to frighten or alarm her. Clearing his throat he speaks,"I love you, and nothing will change that. Let us go to the Simbul, and tell her the child is mine. We can be together and live happy." Her heart sings in joy at his care and love, but then a dread fill her. "I can't live a lie. I must be true. It is my nature. I will fall if I live a life of sin. I cannot deny a man his child. He will return wishing to know his son."Stepping back she is lost in her words. Screaming at herself she wants to stop her tongue, but it is too late. The angelic being inside her speaks of pure faith and honor, and nothing not even the heart can stop that. "I am sorry M'Lord, but I cannot marry you. It would be wrong" Body dieing inside to her own words she stands there strong and broken.
Watching his face he nods in understanding. He gives her a kiss goodbye and wonders back into the woods. Lost as she never saw him again. Pained she too began to lose herself along the garden. Mind whirling and body convulsing, she drops to the ground. Screaming of her pain and her heart torn into two. She lays in the grass never wanting to stand or move as a hand touches her back. She goes rigged laying there not moving. "It is hard to find your strength, but it is there" hearing the voice she looks back she seeing the Arch Oracle kneeling next to her. Oh how she despised him. Oh how he was so full of knowledge and no heart. A heart to his Goddess is all he knows. Oh how she felt remorse, and fear of a man that could not love a woman. Seeing her face he laughs, and sits down next to her.
"You know that the Goddess knows that face very well." smiling he sits there letting her slowly recover her heart. She sits up looking at him as he just watches her. "Why can't I love Evanie as much as you do. So much that even your heart is true to her." she says softly looking at him. Laughing he touches her hand. "Because you were not made to love as I am. No one is made to love the same. Someday you too will love as I do. But as you will always know Evanie love you too" smiling with a tear running down her face she squeezes his hand thanking him for his knowledge and wisdom. After an afternoon sitting on the ground, and speaking to her greatest friend. He lightly stands with a smiles. "Well Jennidia I must be going back to the temple and clean up the mess. It was great speaking with you as it always is. Take care of that child, and don't move so fast that your heart doesn't even know what you body is doing." embracing her in a quick hug, and he was off. Just as quick as he appeared.
Standing herself she moves to her clouds. Sitting and thinking she lets herself slide into sleep. Letting her mind wander off to a peaceful place. As she awaits to the music of the sunrise she moves along her clouds not really wishing to see earth. So she spends the day watching her brother and sisters dance and play among Heaven in glorious waves of white, and gold. She smiles for she knew her sister of dance was always looking for a show, she pulls her harp and joins in the festivities. Strumming to the beat of her sisters feet, she moves faster lossing her thought of her earthly problems. The day moves on and the sun sets. She moves back to her cloud and silently lays her head to rest. She awakes to a strange calling in the night with a jerk of her robes. She descents not knowing of such commotion. Hearing a cry for help she quickly moves to the fortress. Two angels were fighting a dragon. A DRAGON mind you. Peaceful creatures then were known to be. She stands in awe confused and tired. This dragon seems to have lost its mind. As she watches in horror it quickly takes one angels, and with a swift motion is cuts her wings off without even a care. Before Jennidia could even react she was screaming in terror. "NO!...." Feeling a pull around her stomach she is lifted in the air. Squirming and screaming she pleads for whoever that held her to let her go. It was the Arch Oracle's voice she heard next. "Nay sister you must not fight, this is not our place."
"NO! Let me go Arv-"screaming at him and trying to get his arms off her. "Nay Jennidia I WILL NOT!" He screams back pained that she does not seem to care for her child. Hearing his pain she goes limp and lets them ascend to heaven. Not sure of her hate, her rage or her sisters safely she cries and is unable to move. So much has gone wrong. So much darkness. The Arch Oracle sat her on a cloud and looked at her. Speaking with a stern voice "Will you stay and not leave? I cannot have you endangering this child." she hears his plea and nods. "Nay I will not go." He smiles and gives her a hug, and descends the clouds to watch the fight, and to assist if need be.
Sleep follows her again as nightmares begin to from. She tosses and turn in her sleep and awakes to a pain in her stomach. Fear crosses her mine as her eyes fly open. Slowly moving her trembling hands along her stomach she feels a spasm in her belly. Curling in a ball she rocks back and forth praying for her child as she begins to sing to it. The spasm slows to a painful dull, and relax. Sighing in great relief she relaxes into sleep again. Dreaming of a beautiful cherub with long white hair, and gorgeous lavender eyes.
Smiling she awakes to a dove peering down at her. She sees the note attacked and quickly unwinds it. "I am home." Her heart jumps as she notices the handwriting. She sends the bird off and descends the heavens. Landing quietly on the roof she peers down on the balcony. There stood a gorgeous fae watching the birds and pondering to himself. She smiled as she watched him wondering if she should come down. Hearing a small laughter he speaks softly. "You know..You can sit there all day and I will still stand here waiting for you to come down." Blushing she slowly slides off the rooftop and lands behind him. Still holding his stance and watching the birds she composes herself folding her wings behind her. A small sigh escapes him as he touches the banister and leans forward. "So I hear you are getting married". Shaking her her head she speaking one word softly. "Nay.." The fae continues to stand as he hears her word. Nodding he slowly turns. Facing her and watching her face to see if she speaks the truth. "Why not?" He spoke with a questing in his eyes. "Because I could not live a lie M'lord" she spoke softly still unsure of her place on the balcony. "And what might I ask is a lie to this angel" crossing his arms and watching her. "A lie is to be unfaithful to the truth, and keeping a oath that was given" she speaks her words and looks down. "Then keeping a oath has saddened you. I am at a lost for words" he speaks peering at her disconcerting stance.
"I will keep my word, and never be false to it again as not keeping it has pained me in great ways." she says closing her mouth now not to speak another word. He smiles and takes her hand. "No need to be so unconformable. I am merely seeking what you seek in life." laughing he lifts her gaze from the floor and looks at her. "I have been away for far to long to see my angel suffer so. I promise to not leave like that again." looking at his eyes as she sees truth she is confused and lost. Still not sure of herself she does not speak. Laughing again as he watches her face he hold her hand close to him. "You must not look so sad. It is not befitting and angel such as yourself,"
A light passes through her as she begins to smile. "You always did have a way with words" smiling softly. He hold onto her hand a bit tighter and looks deep into her eyes. Shaking his head as he sighs. "Nay I am only as wise as you make me, for my soul was yours to begin with." Eyes become wide as she peers at him not sure what he meant, yet understanding fully. Watching his eyes as she feels his grip pull her closer. He wraps her in a deep kiss before she had a word to say. Heart begins to pound in her ears as she is lost in his embrace unable to move. All fear from her mind leaving her as she feels him slowly release her but still holding her hand to him. Slowly kneeling he does not lose her hand from his fingers. Removing from his pocket was a beautiful and intricate pouch. Loosening it he lays it across his knee for leverage to untie the strings. Removing a beautiful and even large emerald diamond ring. Lost in his action she can't move. Placing her right hand on her chest she is feeling faint. He looks up to her and speaks with a very sure tone. Telling her of all things that she has done for him, and how he is lost without her beside him. Knowing her answer before he even moved from her she kneels down next to him without a hesitation. Speaking in a very strong voice that she didn't even know she had. "No man especially my husband shall never bow before me. Aye. I will marry you" tears fill her eyes as he smiles places the ring on her left ring finger.
Relaxing after all the excitement they decide to spend the evening together making plans of the future, and enjoying one another's company. Falling asleep in his arms she knows of no other place that her heart would be.
Watching his face he nods in understanding. He gives her a kiss goodbye and wonders back into the woods. Lost as she never saw him again. Pained she too began to lose herself along the garden. Mind whirling and body convulsing, she drops to the ground. Screaming of her pain and her heart torn into two. She lays in the grass never wanting to stand or move as a hand touches her back. She goes rigged laying there not moving. "It is hard to find your strength, but it is there" hearing the voice she looks back she seeing the Arch Oracle kneeling next to her. Oh how she despised him. Oh how he was so full of knowledge and no heart. A heart to his Goddess is all he knows. Oh how she felt remorse, and fear of a man that could not love a woman. Seeing her face he laughs, and sits down next to her.
"You know that the Goddess knows that face very well." smiling he sits there letting her slowly recover her heart. She sits up looking at him as he just watches her. "Why can't I love Evanie as much as you do. So much that even your heart is true to her." she says softly looking at him. Laughing he touches her hand. "Because you were not made to love as I am. No one is made to love the same. Someday you too will love as I do. But as you will always know Evanie love you too" smiling with a tear running down her face she squeezes his hand thanking him for his knowledge and wisdom. After an afternoon sitting on the ground, and speaking to her greatest friend. He lightly stands with a smiles. "Well Jennidia I must be going back to the temple and clean up the mess. It was great speaking with you as it always is. Take care of that child, and don't move so fast that your heart doesn't even know what you body is doing." embracing her in a quick hug, and he was off. Just as quick as he appeared.
Standing herself she moves to her clouds. Sitting and thinking she lets herself slide into sleep. Letting her mind wander off to a peaceful place. As she awaits to the music of the sunrise she moves along her clouds not really wishing to see earth. So she spends the day watching her brother and sisters dance and play among Heaven in glorious waves of white, and gold. She smiles for she knew her sister of dance was always looking for a show, she pulls her harp and joins in the festivities. Strumming to the beat of her sisters feet, she moves faster lossing her thought of her earthly problems. The day moves on and the sun sets. She moves back to her cloud and silently lays her head to rest. She awakes to a strange calling in the night with a jerk of her robes. She descents not knowing of such commotion. Hearing a cry for help she quickly moves to the fortress. Two angels were fighting a dragon. A DRAGON mind you. Peaceful creatures then were known to be. She stands in awe confused and tired. This dragon seems to have lost its mind. As she watches in horror it quickly takes one angels, and with a swift motion is cuts her wings off without even a care. Before Jennidia could even react she was screaming in terror. "NO!...." Feeling a pull around her stomach she is lifted in the air. Squirming and screaming she pleads for whoever that held her to let her go. It was the Arch Oracle's voice she heard next. "Nay sister you must not fight, this is not our place."
"NO! Let me go Arv-"screaming at him and trying to get his arms off her. "Nay Jennidia I WILL NOT!" He screams back pained that she does not seem to care for her child. Hearing his pain she goes limp and lets them ascend to heaven. Not sure of her hate, her rage or her sisters safely she cries and is unable to move. So much has gone wrong. So much darkness. The Arch Oracle sat her on a cloud and looked at her. Speaking with a stern voice "Will you stay and not leave? I cannot have you endangering this child." she hears his plea and nods. "Nay I will not go." He smiles and gives her a hug, and descends the clouds to watch the fight, and to assist if need be.
Sleep follows her again as nightmares begin to from. She tosses and turn in her sleep and awakes to a pain in her stomach. Fear crosses her mine as her eyes fly open. Slowly moving her trembling hands along her stomach she feels a spasm in her belly. Curling in a ball she rocks back and forth praying for her child as she begins to sing to it. The spasm slows to a painful dull, and relax. Sighing in great relief she relaxes into sleep again. Dreaming of a beautiful cherub with long white hair, and gorgeous lavender eyes.
Smiling she awakes to a dove peering down at her. She sees the note attacked and quickly unwinds it. "I am home." Her heart jumps as she notices the handwriting. She sends the bird off and descends the heavens. Landing quietly on the roof she peers down on the balcony. There stood a gorgeous fae watching the birds and pondering to himself. She smiled as she watched him wondering if she should come down. Hearing a small laughter he speaks softly. "You know..You can sit there all day and I will still stand here waiting for you to come down." Blushing she slowly slides off the rooftop and lands behind him. Still holding his stance and watching the birds she composes herself folding her wings behind her. A small sigh escapes him as he touches the banister and leans forward. "So I hear you are getting married". Shaking her her head she speaking one word softly. "Nay.." The fae continues to stand as he hears her word. Nodding he slowly turns. Facing her and watching her face to see if she speaks the truth. "Why not?" He spoke with a questing in his eyes. "Because I could not live a lie M'lord" she spoke softly still unsure of her place on the balcony. "And what might I ask is a lie to this angel" crossing his arms and watching her. "A lie is to be unfaithful to the truth, and keeping a oath that was given" she speaks her words and looks down. "Then keeping a oath has saddened you. I am at a lost for words" he speaks peering at her disconcerting stance.
"I will keep my word, and never be false to it again as not keeping it has pained me in great ways." she says closing her mouth now not to speak another word. He smiles and takes her hand. "No need to be so unconformable. I am merely seeking what you seek in life." laughing he lifts her gaze from the floor and looks at her. "I have been away for far to long to see my angel suffer so. I promise to not leave like that again." looking at his eyes as she sees truth she is confused and lost. Still not sure of herself she does not speak. Laughing again as he watches her face he hold her hand close to him. "You must not look so sad. It is not befitting and angel such as yourself,"
A light passes through her as she begins to smile. "You always did have a way with words" smiling softly. He hold onto her hand a bit tighter and looks deep into her eyes. Shaking his head as he sighs. "Nay I am only as wise as you make me, for my soul was yours to begin with." Eyes become wide as she peers at him not sure what he meant, yet understanding fully. Watching his eyes as she feels his grip pull her closer. He wraps her in a deep kiss before she had a word to say. Heart begins to pound in her ears as she is lost in his embrace unable to move. All fear from her mind leaving her as she feels him slowly release her but still holding her hand to him. Slowly kneeling he does not lose her hand from his fingers. Removing from his pocket was a beautiful and intricate pouch. Loosening it he lays it across his knee for leverage to untie the strings. Removing a beautiful and even large emerald diamond ring. Lost in his action she can't move. Placing her right hand on her chest she is feeling faint. He looks up to her and speaks with a very sure tone. Telling her of all things that she has done for him, and how he is lost without her beside him. Knowing her answer before he even moved from her she kneels down next to him without a hesitation. Speaking in a very strong voice that she didn't even know she had. "No man especially my husband shall never bow before me. Aye. I will marry you" tears fill her eyes as he smiles places the ring on her left ring finger.
Relaxing after all the excitement they decide to spend the evening together making plans of the future, and enjoying one another's company. Falling asleep in his arms she knows of no other place that her heart would be.
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
Letting go of Character Basics
HA! I gave up for a minute. I had to write a blog that we predominately well, ME! I had been thinking about this contemplation for sometime, and thought well. I guess it wouldn't hurt. I have a very broad sense of humor, and find myself with puns not even my own dog recognizes. So I think to myself "Hmm...I wonder who we can mess with today." I am a 24 woman living in a well older woman point of view. My own mother sees me as her best friend, and I find myself scolding her then me. She takes pride in the fact that everyone thinks she is my older sister, but hey what are parents for by to lead you by the hand all the way to the end. Well their end that is.
I am well a noob still in SL. As much as I hate to admit it, I have found that I know nothing of this world but my own tongue. I am quick with access the moments in time to suit my needs, but I never grasp the concept of time. Well there is technically no time in SL, but the time you put forth inside. I have found myself engrossed in Aglarond so deeply, that I haven't even placed myself were I need to be. I am not suggesting that I don't need to be there, I just need to find a vacation spot to were I can well hang my halo for the night.
My roommate and forthright friend of all time, has wondered in this reality with me and has found herself wondering. Unable to be sucked in to Aglarond she enlightens herself with pastimes of school, and teaching. Unlike myself which I exasperatingly need to trudge towards. Has begun a serious of enchanting tales to wield at my own demise.
Such a pity to find my husband in RL devastated by such a notion of me taking a liking to a place is merely aghast at his own inability to simply log in. His computer can't handle the software so he moved on to other forms of enjoyment. The wonderful world of W.o.W. (World of Warcraft) has become my husbands greatest tool. He spends hours on it plains as I stare in wonderment of mine.
SL is a place were I can truly be we the only thing I can be (me). As I wonder though the lands of many I decide like every other av must do and think of a world all my own. So thus Evanie was born. Creating Evanost. A land only time will build for SL is not cheap. A couple of choice friends and a great knowledgeable 16 years old kid, has taken me by surprise as he opens the doors the temple. I am in ow of his timing, and his ability to consume textured information.
He gives me the keys of life as I find my true home. Moving along the smoothness of the floor I feel myself slip into SL more. (GODS) how I hate becoming obsessed with a pix elated ovarian of life, and falseness of reality, but how the human mind takes pleasure in the simplest of complexity.
Well time drones on as it always does. Again time has no meaning in SL as the stairs wind and unfold before me. Spreading my av's wings I fly through a window and stand on the roof. Who needs stairs when you have wind to fill your feathers. *Sighs* what an emotion of falsified ruins. How does one become lost int he rise and fall of a sunset that only takes 15 to 20 minutes to reload. Well I stare in wonder at the graphic solarium of stars. What beauty...
Well I am growing quiet tired as I had a very stressful weak with what we call a griefer. He almost got me too. Well I will move forward onto the next chapter of Jennidia as this Jennidia moves to her RL bed.
chaio'
Jennidia
I am well a noob still in SL. As much as I hate to admit it, I have found that I know nothing of this world but my own tongue. I am quick with access the moments in time to suit my needs, but I never grasp the concept of time. Well there is technically no time in SL, but the time you put forth inside. I have found myself engrossed in Aglarond so deeply, that I haven't even placed myself were I need to be. I am not suggesting that I don't need to be there, I just need to find a vacation spot to were I can well hang my halo for the night.
My roommate and forthright friend of all time, has wondered in this reality with me and has found herself wondering. Unable to be sucked in to Aglarond she enlightens herself with pastimes of school, and teaching. Unlike myself which I exasperatingly need to trudge towards. Has begun a serious of enchanting tales to wield at my own demise.
Such a pity to find my husband in RL devastated by such a notion of me taking a liking to a place is merely aghast at his own inability to simply log in. His computer can't handle the software so he moved on to other forms of enjoyment. The wonderful world of W.o.W. (World of Warcraft) has become my husbands greatest tool. He spends hours on it plains as I stare in wonderment of mine.
SL is a place were I can truly be we the only thing I can be (me). As I wonder though the lands of many I decide like every other av must do and think of a world all my own. So thus Evanie was born. Creating Evanost. A land only time will build for SL is not cheap. A couple of choice friends and a great knowledgeable 16 years old kid, has taken me by surprise as he opens the doors the temple. I am in ow of his timing, and his ability to consume textured information.
He gives me the keys of life as I find my true home. Moving along the smoothness of the floor I feel myself slip into SL more. (GODS) how I hate becoming obsessed with a pix elated ovarian of life, and falseness of reality, but how the human mind takes pleasure in the simplest of complexity.
Well time drones on as it always does. Again time has no meaning in SL as the stairs wind and unfold before me. Spreading my av's wings I fly through a window and stand on the roof. Who needs stairs when you have wind to fill your feathers. *Sighs* what an emotion of falsified ruins. How does one become lost int he rise and fall of a sunset that only takes 15 to 20 minutes to reload. Well I stare in wonder at the graphic solarium of stars. What beauty...
Well I am growing quiet tired as I had a very stressful weak with what we call a griefer. He almost got me too. Well I will move forward onto the next chapter of Jennidia as this Jennidia moves to her RL bed.
chaio'
Jennidia
Monday, June 2, 2008
Ice and Rain
As her wedding approaches she finds that she is very weak. She goes to the doctors of her land, for an angel knows of now sickness. The doctors take a look at her, and smiles. "Oh dear, you are with child." the midwives shake her head as she walks away. Standing there the angels is beside herself. Heart in joy, but shattered in a million pieces. Only one man has touched her. ONLY ONE, and he is GONE. What is she going to do. How is her betrothed going to handle this. How is SHE going to live with this knowledge alone. She tells her Arch Oracle, and makes him vow a cry of silence, but before she even leave the temple he sends a parchment to the man to warn him of her sickness, and her future. Worried for her safety he only wishes what is best for her, but not sure of her decisions in her state of mind.
She wonders looking for a way to tell her betrothed, for she can't lie to him. An angel falls without her honor, and truth of light. He walks from the darkness with a smile, and wraps his arms around her trembling body. He looks into her eyes, and sees her pain. He back up lightly and holds her at arms length. "Oh pray tell me dear, what has worried my pour angels heart?" She peers back at him hearing her heart screaming to her to tell him the truth. "M'Lord, I must speak to you of things to come." he nods, and motions for her to have a seat. She does with a nod, and begins to speak lightly.
She tell him of her encounter with her friend, and how she has been touched, and how her heart grieved for him. How she was raped by another, and how......how...how she boars a child. His eyes fill with pain, and he looks the other way. Unable to look upon her. He feels his heart breaking in two as he stand. Tears filling his eyes he looks down, making sure she does not see.
"I love you, but I must go" he walks off lightly and into the darkness. She stands there feeling her heart grow cold. Feeling ice shards enter her body like cold water filling her veins. Hating her every being. Feeling like she had destroyed herself. Mean while the Fae that is to return has sent the Queen word of his arrival, and how he deserves the right to fight for his family, and love. He pleads to her of how he does not wish to leave a child alone. How he wants to be apart of this small one unlike his father. Worried that he will turn into his father he hasten his paste. Morning forward and making time. HE WILL NOT STAND FOR THIS. As she awaits in heaven she touches her stomach lightly thinking of what her child will looks like. Wondering if she will marry.
A dove flutter down with grace, and she notices the seal upon the parchment. "THE QUEEN?" she was in shock, hands were shaking as she opened the letter. All it said was "COME AT ONCE" She held it to her chest as fear rushed to her, and she descended the clouds to await her simbuls words. As she entered the thrown room the Simbul motioned her to cross the room to sit at her feet. She bowed lightly folding her wings under her robes. Gracefully walking to her Queens side she hides her fear. The queen looks down on her with a great sadness in her eyes. "Jennidia, I have heard that you have a lover awaiting you. Is this true?" Looking at the parchment clutched in the hands of the Simbul she noticed the worn edges, and know it was from HIM. She looks to the Simbul and nods. "Aye my Queen I do, or did" not sure of her answer she looks down. The Simbul nodding she takes Jennidia's face and moves it to look up at her. and watches her eyes. She speak with a faint yet strong will manor. "Are you with child, and is it this mans that has come to call?" Fear again filling her heart she nods without a word. Unable to speak she lets her mind slip away awaiting to be sent away or thrown in jail. She hears a great sigh escape the Simbul as she leans into her thrown letting the angel sit next to on the steps a minute. "Well Jennidia, the wedding must wait. We must not make haste on such a strong emotion of events." Jennidia goes to protest but understands the Simbul's words. Nodding she stands. Bowing again she ask to leave. The Simbul nods having many things to complete herself she lets the Angel depart knowing that her words were pain enough.
Jennidia wonders through the night as she does not know what to do. The next day she awakes to hear that the angel that desecrated her was torn from the sky in a war that he could not stop. As she holds the letter close happy he got his judgment she still felt like he did not get the full judgment knowing one day he will return. Thoughts rushing from her mind her Leopard calls to her. She goes to him with a smile. Happy to think of something other then the heart. She walks with him through the woods, and watching him chase after mice, and rodents. Happy to be among a friend she decides to confide in him. Not telling him to much, but telling him of the Simbul's decision. He agreed that there was a lot going on, and that she needed time to think, but after that he feel silent, and told her that her betrothed cried to him of her all night, and of her pain caused by another angel. She nodded listening unable to truly respond.
He licked her face, and pured to her lightly. Laying atop her feet she let her mind wander, as she watched him sleep. Maybe it will be okay. But all she knew is that this child was hers, and no one would take that away from her.
She wonders looking for a way to tell her betrothed, for she can't lie to him. An angel falls without her honor, and truth of light. He walks from the darkness with a smile, and wraps his arms around her trembling body. He looks into her eyes, and sees her pain. He back up lightly and holds her at arms length. "Oh pray tell me dear, what has worried my pour angels heart?" She peers back at him hearing her heart screaming to her to tell him the truth. "M'Lord, I must speak to you of things to come." he nods, and motions for her to have a seat. She does with a nod, and begins to speak lightly.
She tell him of her encounter with her friend, and how she has been touched, and how her heart grieved for him. How she was raped by another, and how......how...how she boars a child. His eyes fill with pain, and he looks the other way. Unable to look upon her. He feels his heart breaking in two as he stand. Tears filling his eyes he looks down, making sure she does not see.
"I love you, but I must go" he walks off lightly and into the darkness. She stands there feeling her heart grow cold. Feeling ice shards enter her body like cold water filling her veins. Hating her every being. Feeling like she had destroyed herself. Mean while the Fae that is to return has sent the Queen word of his arrival, and how he deserves the right to fight for his family, and love. He pleads to her of how he does not wish to leave a child alone. How he wants to be apart of this small one unlike his father. Worried that he will turn into his father he hasten his paste. Morning forward and making time. HE WILL NOT STAND FOR THIS. As she awaits in heaven she touches her stomach lightly thinking of what her child will looks like. Wondering if she will marry.
A dove flutter down with grace, and she notices the seal upon the parchment. "THE QUEEN?" she was in shock, hands were shaking as she opened the letter. All it said was "COME AT ONCE" She held it to her chest as fear rushed to her, and she descended the clouds to await her simbuls words. As she entered the thrown room the Simbul motioned her to cross the room to sit at her feet. She bowed lightly folding her wings under her robes. Gracefully walking to her Queens side she hides her fear. The queen looks down on her with a great sadness in her eyes. "Jennidia, I have heard that you have a lover awaiting you. Is this true?" Looking at the parchment clutched in the hands of the Simbul she noticed the worn edges, and know it was from HIM. She looks to the Simbul and nods. "Aye my Queen I do, or did" not sure of her answer she looks down. The Simbul nodding she takes Jennidia's face and moves it to look up at her. and watches her eyes. She speak with a faint yet strong will manor. "Are you with child, and is it this mans that has come to call?" Fear again filling her heart she nods without a word. Unable to speak she lets her mind slip away awaiting to be sent away or thrown in jail. She hears a great sigh escape the Simbul as she leans into her thrown letting the angel sit next to on the steps a minute. "Well Jennidia, the wedding must wait. We must not make haste on such a strong emotion of events." Jennidia goes to protest but understands the Simbul's words. Nodding she stands. Bowing again she ask to leave. The Simbul nods having many things to complete herself she lets the Angel depart knowing that her words were pain enough.
Jennidia wonders through the night as she does not know what to do. The next day she awakes to hear that the angel that desecrated her was torn from the sky in a war that he could not stop. As she holds the letter close happy he got his judgment she still felt like he did not get the full judgment knowing one day he will return. Thoughts rushing from her mind her Leopard calls to her. She goes to him with a smile. Happy to think of something other then the heart. She walks with him through the woods, and watching him chase after mice, and rodents. Happy to be among a friend she decides to confide in him. Not telling him to much, but telling him of the Simbul's decision. He agreed that there was a lot going on, and that she needed time to think, but after that he feel silent, and told her that her betrothed cried to him of her all night, and of her pain caused by another angel. She nodded listening unable to truly respond.
He licked her face, and pured to her lightly. Laying atop her feet she let her mind wander, as she watched him sleep. Maybe it will be okay. But all she knew is that this child was hers, and no one would take that away from her.
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